sunday night
What's there to write about? Not much really, so you have probably just wasted your time reading this. lol
So, I got this tracker thing. It says there's some guy that visited 6 times today. Probably more by now.. I guess I'm glad I'm so interesting? Hey, buddy, what's up?
I should write some crazy stuff just to see what kind of reaction it might bring about. Maybe I'll do that after more time goes by and people forget about this blog. I'm so evil sometimes, that's atleast the way my mind works.
Lifes busy, I get overwhelmed. I should be working on school stuff. I went out to eat with my family and a friend yesterday. That was cool. Yesterday was interesting I guess. It gives a variety to life. Sometimes there seems to be a weird line between careing, too caring, and obsessive. It's understandable how people can be obsessive sometimes. I do my best not to be. I have other things I need to do anyway, so I don't really have the time or the energy to be that way. I just hope it doesn't seem like I don't care, simply because I'm trying not to be obbsessive.
I still haven't met the girl in saltlake yet. I guess she actually lives way south, in sandy. That's a lot further than I ever feel like driving. So I can meet her somewhere in the middle if, or whenever she has the time and motivation and stuff to do so. I can go to saltlake sometimes, but mid saltlake is as far south as I go unless I have to, or mostly have to for some reason. Eventually I have to go to draper to get furnature. Maybe I'll see if I can hangout with her on the way there or something.
People kept bothering me about smiling the other night. That's annoying. Then when I tried to exlplain it to them, they said they didn't care. Well,, if you don't really care, don't fucking bother me!!!!! Just because I'm not smiling, doesn't mean I'm not happy. My face just doesn't usually naturally go into a smile, and it certainly doesn't stay that way for very long. I also get told I'm quiet a lot. Like maybe I didn't realize after all these years that I am quiet.
I kinda feel unwanted right now, atleast by the girls around here. It's easy to act like you want someone when they are far away. And maybe they do, but they are far away. I'm not saying they are acting, it just gives me someone to miss that can't see. So sometimes that's happy, and othertimes sad.
I want someone around I can just hold and feel better about life. Orion was that for me. I haven't talked to her in forever, and she's far far away, and I'm in all liklyhood not ever going to see or hear from her again. It's something I guess I need deleted from my memeory? I don't know. There's someone else like that now. Every once in a while, magical sorts of people just come around. She's just not close by. I always want to whisk people away, and fix all their problems. Maybe one day I'll be able to do that.
Thanks for reading, have a nice week and stuff.
