There Are Days
There are days when I don’t want out of bed
All I can feel is heartbreak and dread
The world around me is hardened, depraved
Someone please help me to get through unscathed.
People don’t care about much anymore
They break tender hearts and then keep the score
But when you think back on the ways things were
You realize it’s like living in a world with a curse.
I wish I could go to a place no one would find
I think I could live there without missing my kind
My only little corner of the world as they say
A place where I’m happy each and every day.
Come
Come to me and lay a while
Just being with you makes me smile
Wrap your arms around me dear
And close your eyes; let’s disappear
Disappear to a world where only we live
A place full of the love and happiness we give
A place we can become one for just a moment
Shutting out all the pain and torment
Just hold me close and don’t let me go
To feel you here is worth more than you know
To smell your scent on my pillow and sheet
Would be so inconceivable yet so complete
So come to my bed and lay with me
Let me make you feel what life can be
Even if it’s just for a very short time
I can be yours and you can be mine
Determined
I guess I’m determined to take your sun
To make you hate me, to make you run
Run from me and protect your heart
I feel we were doomed straight from the start
No matter what I say or do
I just can’t get things right with you
I miss your essence with me in bed
As thoughts of you fill my head
I love you so much it hurts inside
Where you’re concerned I have no pride
For you I would do anything its true
I don’t want to exist without you
So yes determined is what I am
Determined to by your side forever stand
To love you completely to love you true
That is what I’m determined to do
Have Faith
I have faith in what you tell me
I believe in what you say
I honor you every chance, you see
Every hour of every day
Because my love for you is stronger
Than any I have ever had
I will make this love last longer
Through the good and the bad
If you will trust me as I trust you
Our future will be bright and new
Our love will be tried and true
Have faith is what we need to do.
My Feelings For You
I know you say you love me
And it really warms my heart
But you are never here you see
And so I fall apart
I know you’ve said you don’t feel well
And I don’t doubt that is true
All I know is it feels like hell
The way I’m missing you
I believed and took to heart when you said
I’m the only one with whom you can talk
And that you’d always be beside me in bed
But around you on egg shells I seem to walk.
I’m scared to tell you how I feel
For my fear it tells me to stay clear
And not to push you until you heal
From all that has transpired this year
I hurt for you in the middle of the night
When all is dark and I can’t sleep
There are no sounds, all is quiet
As thoughts of you in my mind do creep.
I think of all the things that we
Talked about in the fall
I wonder if you still think of me
Or if I enter your mind at all
You used say Hii beautiful
Each time you came online
Now you barely answer me
You never have the time
But I will always be here
Waiting on my turn to be
To be the one you want to be near
Just like I used to be
I miss you…
I miss you…
Especially at night when the darkness comes
In the silence of the house, the coldness of my bed
I miss your essence flowing over me;
Ushering my spirit unto you
It’s like you are there…
Loving arms keeping me warm;
Keeping me safe
I love the way the bed is warm
As if your body has been there next to me
I love the smell of you on the sheets
Even though it’s just an allusion
You and I, we are not as different as some may think
For we are of one heart, one mind
Our souls long for the same things
Truth, honesty, and acceptance
Our insecurities are apparent in our words.
I long to take care of you; take away the pain
Take away the anguish I see and feel in your words
They are like a tidal wave
Tugging on my heart; breaking it with each syllable
If only there was something I could do for you
But you are not here
You are thousands of miles away
Living your life
Sharing it with others
I hope you are happy
Hope you are well because
I can’t bear to think of you alone,
Bearing the pain with no one to comfort you
I miss you….