DoctorJERMx's blog: "this is my brain on...line."

that sinking feeling that feelings from another person have faded or just stopped.

i have no idea why.

i know i didnt do anything to cause the distance or the obvious drop.

i havent gotten a single explanation or response or anything more than a hello then nothing after.

this is what i get though!

this!

having feelings for someone.

and its not because its easy haha.

no...not when it happened unexpectedly from online.

then realizing i would be traveling quite a way to see this person.

knowing that i would make the money to do that.

understanding the fact, it might not work out but...gotta try.

but..

now?

i have the thought it was just a thought by the other person.

and im stcuk here like a fcukin fool with my thumb up my ass.

i dont feel heart broken though..i feel stupid.

maybe im just paranoid and thinking too far into bad things?

but i doubt it.

im not really a moron...i can tell when something is up.

its either im just not what this person wanted, she came to her "senses"..?

or something bad has happened and im not trusted enough to be told.

so im left in the dark either way.

i might wear my heart on my sleeve but i think i'll start using titanium cuff links from now on.