Slee's blog: "Oooh goodie, I finally found it"

So, what's first? God always come first right? lol I take some and put them on a plane. I put a parachute on them, then I push them out over Africa. The should be forever grateful I gave them that trip to Africa. They should whorship me, and follow the arbritrarry rules I gave them, either before or after I push them out of the air-plane. They should be thrilled I gave them that oppurtuinity, that gift, and especially the fucking parachute. I did all that because I love them so much. Now, if they break those rules, whatever I decied them to be, I'll be fucking pissed. I will defiantly make their lives hell, but they do have that free will to do what they want, they will just know if they do break those rules, it will be hell for them. Eventually inorder for me to be able to forgive these people, or that person for breaking my rules, I'll do something, so I guess I'm not all that cruel after all. I will send my only son over there so he can be tortured. Him being tortured will make it able for me to forgive that person as long as he believes I had to send my son over there to be tortured so I could forgive him. Who wouldn't be able to believe that anyway? He needs to be greatfull I was nice enough to send my son to be tortured, so I could forgive him for not following my arbritrarry rules after I forced him to be in Africa. He should also repent for breaking my rules in the first place. More on rules now. Rules that aren't "ok". I can't fire you, or not hire you because you are black, white, brown, a certain religion, or a certain age. You can't change those things, it wouldn't be fair. Here's what I can do though. It is " ok " for me to tell someone who is black, and has brown eyes, how long their hair can be, or even what color it has to be, because they can change that. So, if you are a blonde, male, mormon with blue eyes, you have to have long hair. It's fair, because you can change how long your hair is. If you are a white female with brown eyes, then you have to have short hair, it's fair, because you can change the length of your hair. If you don't like the rules, just don't work for me, and if the rules change while you are working for me, then either follow the rules, or quit or get fired. Oh, I forgot to mention fingernails. If you are a man, you mush paint your fingernails either pink, or purple. You can do that, just like you can shave or get a haircut. Which brings me to shaving. Men have to have a beard, and it has to be blue. If there is no possible way for you to grow a beard, talk to me and I'll make an exception granting you a waiver, or make an alternative option like you have to get your lip peirced. It's still ok, Yah, you can't change that you are a man, but you may be able to choose to grow a beard, and you can certainly choose to get your lip peirced. A ring is preferable, but a stud will suffice. You can even where a clear spacer thing if you want while you aren't at work. :)

I've been pissed off this week. It's been hard to concentrate, and sleep. Here's some of the back story. I was talking to my step-sister over the weekend, or last week sometime I think. She mentioned that my parents were making a trip to go down and see her this weekend. She said I should come with them. They hadn't mentioned anything to me about it. I talked to them about it on saturday. They are leaving on thursday, and I get out of school on thursday at 11, and don't have school friday, or monday, so it would seem to work out..... My stepdad was acting like he didn't want me to go though. He wanted to leave earlier than 11 on thursday because it's such along dirve. It's like 6, or 12 hrs or something. Then he was talking about how he didn't know of the hotel arrangements, whether they had more than one bed in their hotel they booked. Also I could tell just by his demenor that he didn't want me to go. This is kinda odd because I've been getting along quite well with my step-dad lately. He's been through a lot of changes in his life, and adjusted to new sorts of things, and I've been there to support him during that time. So it's really strange that he didn't want me to go. ( Especially considering I would or could pay for myself if they let me. It's not like there would be any extra monatary expense. They usually seem to like my company, so it's just really strange. ) Later my mom called me, and said she needed to talk to me. She told me to call her at work. So I did, she was busy and said she needed to talk to me, so she'd call me back in about ten minutes. I'm pretty good at being able to tell when something " isn't quite right " by people's voices, and they way they talk. Especially people I've known for a long time, such as my parents. I asked her if it was something bad, and she said it wasn't.... So, I was ok, I'll talk to you in ten minutes. She called back, and said I could go with them, they would just leave as soon as I got there after school. I brought up that before, my step-dad, didn't want me to go. So then came the explanation wich I'm not supposed to tell him she told me...... I'm rather pissed about it. It's been bothering me for two days now. It affects my sleep. It's disturbing to my core issues and beliefs in life. It's a big fucking deal. See, my step-sister lives with her bf in a house on the same property as his parents. It's a big ranch. His parents are really conservative. Apparently they are " really religious " too. Jerry is worried about what they will think of me. So he doesn't want me to go there with my nails painted, or a bunch of ponytails in my hair. It's almost like he's be "ashamed"? of me or something. It's hard to explain. It's not too hard to understand why he didn't just tell me that to my face, because there would likly have been a foot to his, shortly there after. My criminal theories class pisses me off sometimes. I'm sure most, if not all the people there hate me now. lol. If there wasn't random group activities I had to be there for to get credit for, I don't think I'd show up. Mostly everything is right out of the book, so it seems like I might as well just read the book. Fuck being in class at 830 am alltogether. But I don't want to miss credit for the group activities. I have emotional outbursts sometimes. Things just really upset me, people in general do that. I've talked about that before though. I haven't been able to sleep well at night, and even the sleep I get during the day cuz I'm exhausted isn't conducive to feeling rested, or refreshed. My mind can't even rest when I'm sleeping. I have a test thursday, and a councelor appointment friday. I missed my last appointments with both of my councelors. I'm not going back to the one at school though. It began to be a waste of time. The day I missed one with the va person, was they day I thought my gf broke up with me. Rationiol thoughts, and memories of things I needed to do ceased at that point. It took a few days for them to start up again. ( We are doing well now )I feel like I did before I was on my medication. It reallly is an awefull feeling. The army trivializes the significance of it when they say it's easily treated with medication. Because ya know what? It's fucking not!!! It's not cured with medication either!!!! Anti-depressiants aren't like anti-biotics. It's not like they kill the bacteria, or virus or help heal what causes you incumberment.

Merry christmas!!! — Tuesday, April 11, 2006 The world has flipped upside down..... Thank you to all you who have posted rants about people saying happy hollidays now instead of merry christmas. It's something I was going to write about before and forgot. It still comes kinda hard for me to believe. How bizarre the world gets. But it's a very good thing. Things are finally starting to come around full circle... Yes, today in the here and now Christians, Yes you heard me right, Christians and their advocacy groups, are upset that people are complaining about the things they say. How dare they try to censor you guys. Not you who don't want walmart to sell cd's with cussing, or mature video games. Not you people who give me dirty looks and tell me to watch my language, not you people who feel the need to controll what other people see, hear, sell, and do all the time. How could anyone ever have a problem with the stuff you say? So say it loud, say it proud, Merry fucking christmas!!!! How does it fell now, BITCHES!!!

I don't normally go see movies or anything anymore. I heard that the narcissistic dictator dies in it though. And you know how I'm all about killing narcissistic dictators. So I might go see it.

To fun and famlilies. Don't get too drunk and say or do anything too stupid, you'll probably see eachother again in about a month. So wait till christmas when people will have a couple months to forget whatever you do. :-)

It probably seems obvious to the people who know me. I'm not sure where any confusion would come in, there. I'm not inlove with anyone else. That doesn't mean I don't care about anyone else, or don't ever talk to any other females. I don't only talk to the people I'm inlove with. I also don't only talk to females that I may have sex with, or anything like that. As crazy as that may sound to some people. I know the common view, is the opposite sex, is only on the planet to have sex with, and if you aren't going to do that, why the fuck would you even talk to them?? I'm not really a subscriber to that type of thinking. My life would probably more simple if I was. Not really sure what the fuck is wrong with me. Maybe I'm just "immature"? or something. I shouldn't care about people so much, I shouldn't talk to females unless I'm going to fuck them, and I probably have lots of other faults too. Does anyone know where I can get some kind of treatment for that sort of thing? I guess the next time I go to my counselors, and they ask what I want to work on, That's what I'll tell them. Well, today I want to work on not caring about anyone. I also want to work on somehow only wanting to talk to a girl if I'm inlove with her, or if I want to fuck her. Please help me be a mostly heartless bastard, that basically thinks with my dick. Maybe there's some kind of medication I can get to help me with that. If people didn't love me, atleast they wouldn't be able to hate me as much either.

Sunday, November 18, 2007 If men are pigs..... Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping This is somewhat related to the last blog. Not sure exactly what brought this to mind. I guess I was thinking about pigs? Some men, are well, pigs. How do people control pigs? Sometimes they put a huge ring in their nose to stop them from routing. It makes it painfull, it's a natural thing for the pigs to do, so they still do it some even with the ring. I think they also put a ring in the noses' of bulls so they can control them better. Maybe we could use the same sort of concept for men? We could put a huge ring in men that are assholes. Men that have a history of abuse, and stuff like that. Maybe one in their nose, or maybe somewhere else... However, if we just put one in their nose, it might stigmatize people who have their noses peirced. So other more hidden places would be better. And/or, depending on the severity of the person's aggressions, we could put one in their nose, and one in a more sensitive place, and attatch a chain connecting them together. So that way, only people who have chains connected to their nose and genitals would be stigmatized. I don't know how many of those people are out there though. I'm thinking they might like pain, so they might not mind the stigmatization as much. I'm not really sure though. See, this way, we could make it easy to controll these people who have a hard time controlling themselves. See folks, this isn't so much about revenge, as it is about protecting people. The criminals could be out on probation, and we wouldn't have to worry about them endangering others as much. It might reduce recidivism. People could vollunteer to comply with this if they wanted paroll, and the paroll board didn't quite trust them. They would have to somehow put a lock on the rings so in order to get them out, the parrollee would have to go back to a certain place. They could go back there each week to make sure it's not infected, and everything is ok with it. The rings would have trackers in them, and would set off an alarm if anyone cut them, inturnal circets and such. Maybe it could even be set up to deliver a shock, if necesary. If they were in a stand-off with guns, then the police could just push a button, and controll the asshole. A chip could even be implanted into the assholes girlfriend, wife, children, and other victims, so that it would activate the shock, if necesarry. Hopefully the people would use it just for fun and vengence. Of course there would be only a certain distance it would work from. It's not like they could get bored while the guy was away at work or something and shock him for the hell of it. If it did happen then their would be penalties, and the guy could move away, or something. The shock, would alert the authoraties at the same time. That way they couldn't sit an torture the person for too long, and they couldn't do it just for fun, atleast on more than one occasion. I'm not saying people would be wearing these forever, especially the one's that have allready gone through the system. People should be given a second chance after they have served their time. I do think that for certain crimes, this may be an alternative to a death-penalty, life in prison, or a huge prison term. I don't know exactly how practical it would be, or if it would really work. I suppose people could get super deadening cream to kill the pain and stuff. There's probably other problems with it too. It's just an idea. A thought I had. Another bad thing about it is it could be used for blackmail, and coercion and such. But people use parroll for stuff like that all the time anyway. I believe in second chances. No one is perfect, sometimes people skrew up. It would be something that might help people who had issues, that wanted to be "better" not to skrew up again. If I lost my temper, and did something stupid, and got senteced to jail or prison, I think I would opt to have a ring in my genitals, connected to one in my nose, if I could have a second chance to prove I wouldn't do it again. Then after the time was up, I'd just keep rings in there, and get the chain removed. I would still be more fagile, and less likely to start confrontations and avoid them when they came up. If I did something stupid, and got my nose ripped off, or something else, I'd just have to accept it. I don't have that big of a problem with becoming a girl. It would be nice to have long hair, and titts, and not have people give me too strange of looks. I'd just have to move and change my name so people didn't realize that I uste to be a guy to avoid discrimination. Or maybe I'd just stay in the same place, I don't know. ( Yes, this also goes for women too. If they are violent, abusive towards children or other people. I just wrote it using men as the example. )