Belle's blog: "only till now"

Tears fill my eyes As I swallow my pain Hunger and lust consume my soul Only wanting relief Blade reaching for the hand Flesh torn wide Cascading sweet velvet red Wanting and needing to be free Screams call out Only to echo off the empty halls Feeling trapt and unwanted Unloved and not needed Not knowing why we breathe Looking in the mirror Reaching out for meaning Now is my time............................. To be free...................................................

Tears fill my insides as i slowly start to drown the hunger of red cascades pulling me under further and further i fall deeper into a whole An abyss of pain and damnation trying to hide from relief the cold razor sharp metal calling for my hand wanting only a taste Sweet, bitter sweet relief Sadness clutter the mind leaving no room for happiness Tears slowly fall from my eyes as the hunger takes over the torn skin burns for a second I’m free but only for a second......

cold and bitter thoughts culter the mind only leaving room for hunger sweet cascades of emptyness fill a puddle in the floor only wanting more the cold sharp steel calls for the hand wanting only torn flesh its burns only for releaf