Only God Knows Why…
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knows why.
Now thoughts of anguish,
Travel through my mind,
And now the reasons why it happened,
I try to find.
We had our good times,
We had our bad,
Now you’re gone,
And it all seems sad.
If I just had one more minute,
To tell you what I never said,
I’d tell you that I loved you,
But now it’s too late, cause you’re dead.
If my tears would clear a path,
And my memories build a ridge,
I’d push back the hands of time,
And bring you back across that holy bridge.
I may have acted,
Like I didn’t care,
Cause I never displayed my feelings, now I can’t,
It’s just not fair.
I wish I would have been more open,
Cause I miss you so much,
It’s almost like our memories,
I can reach for, but never touch.
I used to think it could never be too late,
Now there’s this gaping hole,
I try to cover it up,
But it doesn’t seem to work, not even my memories can mend this broken sole.
Now I can only sit and ponder,
About the special times that we will never share,
And think about the carelessness,
That even the best doctors and a billion dollars can never repair.
I only wish you could fulfill your words,
To sing and dance,
If I ever have a wedding,
I know it was only a joke, but now you’ll never even have the chance.
I know I shouldn’t but I feel angry,
Horrible thoughts of rage,
Tucked away deep down,
Locked inside an unbreakable cage.
My tears flow so freely,
Daddy if you could only see,
How much,
You actually mean to me.
I guess I’m being kind-of selfish,
For all I can think of is what has been lost, and all I truly want to say,
Is how much,
I think she should have to pay.
I know she didn’t mean for it to happen,
But it did,
I just can’t bring myself to believe that it was your time,
I guess that’s because really deep inside I’m still a kid.
I know you had it much worse in life,
But I guess you were a great deal tougher,
Cause even after almost a year has gone by, and throughout my lifetime,
I will forever continue to suffer.
I love mommy dearly,
But nothing she could ever do could start to replace,
Even just the sight,
Of your beloved face.
I will never feel a true sense of closure,
Cause I never got to say goodbye,
Every time I think of what we all went through,
I look up at the sky and begin to cry.
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knows why.
