Ok..you find someone. You talk to that person over and over and over again for months. You talk to that person about all kind of things. That person becomes almost like your AIR to breathe. Every time you sign on to your computer you look for email from that person. Every time the phone rings you hope it is them. When you have a quiet moment in your day you send them a text message just to let them know you are thinking of them. Day to Day becomes the normal thing to talk to them even if it is a quick hello or a 3 hours conversation. You get to the point where you are really comfortable with that person. Maybe even that person is there to help you through a bad time. Everything becomes intertwined with this person. After months they become a part of your life. YOU'RE HOOKED.......!!!!
Then it happens. You get the chance to finally MEET the person that you have become so Infatuated with. The person you wake up every morning thinking of. The person you go to bed every night thinking of. The person that has filled your dreams for the last few months. The time has come to physically put a body with the feelings that you have been giving and receiving for months. YOU know that this is going to be great because you know how your feelings are. YOU know that this will only make you stronger. It is like the next step toward making a REAL relationship with this person. The person that you feel you could with this meeting allow yourself to start to have REAL feelings for ...Maybe even ..YES EVEN fall in LOVE with!!!..:namespace prefix = o ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />
THEN.......................BAM!!!!!!!!!!!!! the time comes and it is a TOTAL FLOP!!!! .............he is not what you expected. either because he was not completely honest about himself or you are not what he thought you were.... and he say "THERE IS NO CHEMISTRY BETWEEN YOU BOTH" so he just wants to possibly be friends.......WHAT !!!! WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT!!!! for months my heart and head has been filled up by this person of hope and caring of a future relationship....NOW I am just suppose to step back, Throw out everything I feel or have felt...because he does not feel the same I am just suppose to ACCEPT this and stay friends.???????????
Yep!!! That is life. That is how things go....You can not force anyone to feel your feelings and you can not expect everyone to like you. It sucks to hear it. Those words ..."YOU'RE JUST NOT WHAT I WANT"...oh that sucks!!!!
Ok ......Now it is over. What next. I can not stay friends with this person?? I do not have that ability. I know this. My feelings are too deep. My infatuation is too strong. SO I CUT TIES!! The worse part is then I sit here and wait for the phone to ring and it be him....look at my email hoping to see one from him....what for a text message......wonder if he is thinking of me....start to email, call or text message him... WHY!?? What was I thinking.?? This will pass and it would have hurt more Lying to him by telling him I just wanted to stay friends
The Honest way is the most painful!!
