well started last night, watched the news bad burned body was found near neighbourhood....naturally since i ain't heard from my bro in almost two years worst go's through my mind. guess u cld say slept like crap, talked to mom early mornin and she's no support and thas her own flesh and blood, gathered details and called for myself since i needed my mind put at ease, with all i told them they said that its "POSSIBLY" not my brother....talk about not putting mind at ease, then was told by guy that was investigating that what i should do for the mean time is put in a missing persons report but i needed his last known address....i tell ya that was hell to get but i did...........anyways i called non emerg ask to speak with missing person reposrts tell them whats up and they tell me i have to call hospitals and yadda yadda and then call back if no luck there. soooo i do this and "NOTHIN" a bit of relief, i call them back and i get a diff person, a man this time more sympathetic, asks his name and date of birth punches it in to computer and bang just like that i am told he was arrested Feb/09/2007, but dunno if still in there. obviously my bro was up to no good. he tells me i have to call the jail and ask them if he is there and that the most they will do if no answers is tell me they can't give that info. which yes exactly i was told just that and the most i can do is call back on thursday (in 2 days) and set up a visit and if he is there then they will if not then that means he is NOT...then i am back to square one with my panic if he isn't..........what a F***ing nightmare.
