Center Of It All!!!
in memory of my true love Liz Alfaro
Oh is it life or death, do you even care. Loving you is
killing me. I should face my fears and love you
always. May death come slowly and with no fear of
loving you. I always wanted you, to kiss and to
hold forever. My sweetest thing, you were my only
love, my only desire. I climbed aboard knowning
very well that this love would kill me. Like a mad
man i rushed to you. Crazy in love my innocent years,
going after a star. Here i am wishing to see you for
one last time. I feel so numb and full of pain. Do
you know what i'm going threw day and night. Slowly
my pain is going away and your image is receeding. I
had a feeling this would happen. My head feels like a
baloon. I like this feeling of being comfortably numb
with a memory of your eyes and lips and the heavens
smiling at us. There is no pain, just a
faint feeling of numb. I want this to end. The dream
is gone and my pain still remains. You are at the
center of all my pain. You make me numb.
Faint!!!
can barely feel my skin hands shaking, lip biting
eyes tweaking, falling slowly
legs numb, and body scrachting!!
Lonely days, long nights paranoid, crowded and scare
Such a crazy day days that i cant stand
Afraid to close my eyes
fearfull of what i may see
scared i wont ever wake up
and if i die, i want to die with u
Dont touch me, dont get close
I cant bare your smile
can't even move, wont even try
images flying, shapes bending
U are the one that wants to play
I dont want to choose, I want to close my eyes
be closer to god Let me lie here and drink this water
Let me be alone, get away Dont stay, I will be here
Let me play with the hand of God
Go AWAY!!!
High Hawk!!!
I'm strapped and ready to fly.
riding fast and high
air blowing, clouds crashing
I remember you sleeping next to me!!
A high hawk flies above all
here i go as i fall from the heavens
I remember your hands holding me tight
Close my eyes to see you standing there
I'm alone, merge in the virgin image
falling fast, air hitting my face
I was hoping you would be on the ground
waiting for me.
Fallen me thru my downward spiral
I was wrong, I landed head first
blood all over, drenched in spring roses
people crying, music playing
Flying high, searching for your virgin face
I remember luving you
Heaven and earth are now one.
How Long!!!!
This poem is not a political poem!
How long? Must we be at war!
How many men and women must we bury?
So many have lost, how can anyone win?
How long, tell me how long for this to end!
When can we be as ONE! One Earth, One as one brother.
Tell me now, why must i kill my own?
Say it with me, NO more, no more.
I dont want to cry another night
I dont want to see bullets flying, bombs dropping
I'm so sick of it, why must it go on.
Is this how we live our lives.
How long? How long till we have no earth
How long till we dont have anyone to call
our on ONE, How long?
I luv u!!!
I luv u so much
You are my baby
You are my everything
My true joy
I luv u so
You are my dreams
You are my heaven on earth
My only reason to be
my shinning light
I luv u so
I luv when u talk to me
I luv when u smile
U are my true desire
my shinning star
my light at the of the tunnel
Dont you forget I luved so.
Is Life Worth Living!!!
So many things were ignited by your touch. How
everything is lost in just a blink. I feel my soul
without any blood. I feel lonely and many nights i
just dont want to open my eyes. Yet so many things
are ignited far inside my soul. I have no clue how
to put out the fire thats burns within. Only gods
knows why i was born. Only gods hand can punish my
sins. I will only tell you crying that i know i'm
nothing to you and when i leave this earth you wont
remember the color of my eyes. Maybe i should
scream but i know it wont do any good for i find
myself alone in a dark and drunk with no reason to
live on.
Lost in Eternity!!!
Alone staring at flowers and roses. I think
All the flowers look alive. With a colt 45 in
one hand. i wonder should i blow my brains out
and never see what beauty really is. I think my
eyes have seen all that god wants me to see.
I sing, "fly, fly away little birdie." in my
head as i see the flowers dancing. as I sing your
name. I'm in the middle of this garden singing our
luv song as the roses dance around me. I serve
a wine bottle and wish to drink myself to dead.
Everyone knows in this life the tragedy that true
luv brings. I wish i could stop your life.
relive in your eyes and stay forever a prisoner
of your heart. Dance roses dance. smile for me.
flowers, all the colors, reds, violets, whites,
blues and pinks, oh how luvly they are. I look
at his rose thinking its you I see. I
pass my nights drinking and flying. When i die
this is how i want go. staring at flowers and
thinking of you.
Not worthy of luv!!!
4x i fell in luv
4x i fathered a child
4x i lost
4x i got shot in the heart
I fly low and never look up
My heart trickles slowly now
Nothing suprises me
not even a bright new star
I dont think happy thoughts any more
I lost all hope of ever loving again
nothing drives me crazy, not even your big
bright eyes and that cute smile you have
Sorry but to me life doesnt matter anything
Beautiful flowers, bright blue skies
not even springs brings happiness to me
I use to luv looking at all the new flowers on a spring day.
Not any more.
Everything is plain and simple to me
even you when i caught you looking at me.
Oh how blissful I am!!!
Would like to thanks you for letting my heaven
shine. Your smile brought me happiness. I want to
let you know that i luv you. I want to invite you to
share my happiness and drink this wine with me. Oh
let me look into your eyes one last time so that i can
see the shooting starts once again. And would you
take this luvly rose i picked for you. I have this
garden where all my flowers smell like you. I cant
distingues any of them from you. That flower tells
me, do you luv me or you dont. I'm always looking at
my garden and all i see is you sitting there with me.
Oh my luv i just need to tell you that i luv you with
all my heart. I luv you so much that my soul cant take
it anymore. Its been many days that my nights are
dark without you. Even though you're not here with me
i want to tell you that you are the only one that
makes me happy.
Precious!!!
fragile! like a new flower
fragile! like a new born in your arms
Precious just like a child
Precious just like a diamond in the sand
You are my precious
my only weaknesses
You know, my knees buckle when I see you
Precious!!! how do i get close to you
Its a question of what we have built
its a matter of trust
and a moment in love
a committment to god
Precious!! Luv thee
How tender your touch
how beautiful your smile
soft as the clouds above
Precious like a spring garden in may
You are my one precious thing!!!
The death of a young man!!!
When i die i only want the world to know that i
luved you. I leave this in writing blank blank.
you are the only women that touch my soul.
For you i cut down these flowers for you i write this
verse. For you, i cry in my sleep.
For you i die. For you I would change the world.
I stare at roses to find the most beautiful of them
all. just for you. It is my only
desire to let the world know of our luv.
On this day i want you to know that my eyes have
picked this luvly red rose to give to you.
Whats in a rose that drives me to you my luv?
You may one day leave me like all the women that
have left me. I know that you luved me
as much as i luved you. Together we have reached
the stars. Together we reached the heavens.
Together my luv, we dreamed it all. On this day.
Take this rose and know thatI only have eyes for you.
When i die read this poem in my memory.
With me till the end!!!
North is my calling, south is my destiny.
I walk in a straight line but I end up going down.
I feel you drift with every night.
My eyes tire as the days end.
Wish I could feel you, but there's no way if I cant see you.
Why must I die now?
I just barely saw you.
My eyes just sparkled with your every move.
For the first time I can say I luv you and now I must go
Go to a land of unknown, oh why must it be like this.
When I leave this land I only want you to remember me
Remember that I did luv once and only once
It's not your fault I am what I am.
This is my destiny, to fall and fall and never to get up.
Luv once and luv thee forever. Thats how I live this life.
One luv, once and for all.
Without You!!!
I wait endlessly without you
My nights are cold, my days are numb
Nothing to live for, nothing to smile about
Without you i die a slowly bloodless death
ashes to ashes, without you i fly low
No flowers to look at, without you
Endless summer skies, bullet the blue skies
Without you, my springs are full of darkness
My Summers are full of emptyness
The falls are dull and winter is unberable
not to mention that during spring i want to die a slow death.
Without you, my world turns slowly into oblivion
Oh god take me now!! I cant live without Her.
Summer Nights!!!
Summer came and went and now i give my life for one
more night just to be with u. I will always remember
the summer skies your eyes. I'm only sorry that i
cant make this last forever. A few months went by but
it was an eternity of happyness with you at my side.
It has been and endless summer for me. I fell in love
for the first time and i dont want it to end. I look
back and wish i can make it and endless summer. Only
you can take back those days. I remember every
moment when we held hands and looked into each others
dreamy eyes. Do you remember how we would spend the
night waiting for the sunrise. Do you remember how we
dance the night away, twisting and turning, laughing
and kissing, those were endless summer nights. Honey,
you know, you made my dreams a reality. Oh baby i
want to tell you, i remember how you love me. You
can't deny that our love will be endless like our
summer nights.
Sergio Orlando Aviles
Scars of love
I will be loving you all my life. Thats what scars of
love do. Day and night i wonder if you remember how
sweet our love was. How our summer nights and winter
nights where spent, loving eachother unconditionally.
You were my only love, the women of my dreams a
fantasy come true. And eventhough you left me and
fell in love with someone else, I will be loving you
forever. Thats right love i will be loving you till
my dying days. Its all because of your love that i
carry this scars. Every beautiful image i see reminds
me of you. Every spring flower every beautiful smell
reminds me of your tender touch, your calming smile,
and your heavenly eyes. I will be loving you all my
life simply because you are my true love. I dont mind
the scars of love, eventhough sometimes i want to
die. The scars remind me of how beautiful my life was
with you at my side. I just want you to know, that
you showed me what love is, and that you are my true
love. My dream lover, my fantasy come true. Love you always.
Sergio Aviles
cold night without you!!!!!!
a cold night once again without you to keep me warm
i wrap myself in my blankets praying that dreaming of you will warm my cold body tonight
if feel the cold in my spine and my eyes slowly shutdown
in my dream you are wearing a colorful flower dress
and your radiant smile warms my soul, spirit and it feels like heaven seen you
my body surrenders to your every touch
a passionate flame is what you bring to my soul
its your touch of love that makes me desire you so close to my body
yeah, i will take my dream and love you forever
it seems that only in my dreams you will be real
every day i wait for night to come so that you can keep me warm just dreaming of you
did i tell you, You are so BEAUTIFUL
you're like heaven on earth in my eyes.
You are the one.
Your smile is so tender
your touch is so pleasing
kiss me now
look into my eyes and take me beyong
be the one for me
the one to love and hold
the one to cry and laugh with
Be the one for now and forever
feel me for what i feel for you and we will be just fine
my love i'm always and forever here
withorwithoutyou happy always
our souls belong together here on heaven and earth
you are the one the brings joy
and the one to bring a smile to my melancholy day
you are the one that brightens up all my days just with one look from your eyes
you will always be the one
always standing by my side
