DarkBanshee's blog: "One Of Those Things"

Ever have one of those days where you feel like a total, Grade A, 100% jack ass?? I did! and it was today...here is the scope, I thought that my girl had dumped me and didn't send me a memo, email, IM, voice mail, nada...Got that resolved. Well, I'm sniffing around her myspace page, checking her out, I mean come on, if you had a girl that hot, you would check her out too...DON"T GET ANY IDEAS, SHE"S MINE! But, I was checking her out, like I always do...I work 3rd shift, what else am I gonna do? but on with the show, there were some comments that bothered me, and things that were not adding up, and me being me, I called her out on it...Smooth Move there DB, you don't even have one, and you are acting like one...Nice work. Now I feel like I have hurt her feelings, just because of my paranoia and the damage and scars left by others. I told her how I feel about her, and when I was missing her bad, I realized how deep and strong those feelings really are. Now, I am looking for a way to make it up to her....Any Ideas?

So, here is the situation, my GF and I have been together for right at 2 months, and all of her words and the sweet shit is about to mean nothing to me, and she is about to get her ring crammed right up her ass. "DB, what has happened in just a few hours to make you like this?" you ask, easy, I can answer that. I'm chilling out on my myspace page, and I like to go to hers from time just to look at the pictures...you guys have seen her, she is eye candy, I mean come on, if you had a girl that hot, wouldn't you look at her all the time? Thank you so much. Anyway, I started noticing some picture comments from her ex and another girl, both of them calling her baby and shit like that, that does not bother me. I'm not over protective, but she tells me that she does not want me to meet her friends until she has real friends. ok, I can dig that, so I am checking these other chicks out, and all the sudden I am a friend!! And I am this friend that came over to fix her laptop and it took longer the expected? WTF?!? If I am her friend, what the hell is up with all the "I love you" and "I miss you" and the "I want to make you happy for the rest of your life." and the "I want to be with you forever?" bull shit??? The only time people act like that is when they want you to be their dirty little secret, or if you are playing them. I told her right out of the gate, I am too fucking old for childish games. I knew I was opening myself up for a whole new kind of disaster with dating a younger woman, I knew that from day one, but I thought maybe this was the chance I had been looking for. Maybe I am over reacting because I am over tired and stressed out. But for the love of fucking god!!! Ok, I have vented that now, look for my next rant after I talk to her...Drink Up, the 1 am show is never the same as the 6am show, please tip your bartenders and wait staff!! PEACE!

So, ok, here is the situation, My Girl is 13 years younger then I am, and people are freaking right the hell out! So, here is what I am wondering, is it that bad that we are that far apart in age??? She's legal, she asked me out first. Yeah, I went out with her, I asked her out the second time, I was just dating, I wasn't looking to fall for her or anyone for that matter, I was still coming out of a break up. Has there been physical contact? Yes, lots of it, (and if you ask me to describe it to you, I am going to ignore you and delete your happy rear end from the comments) But, come one, does age matter when you care very deeply for a person and they care very deeply for you????