Ok this is a rant that might hurt someone's feelings. i'm sorry if it does but I speak my mind ALWAYS. I was raised Wiccan. I was not raised under the lies of christianity. the "easter bunny" "Santa Clause" "the Tooth Faery" and such things as that. all lies made to make children feel better toward christianity. now that rant is not about religion is about trust. I do *not* lie. gave that up a long time ago. I found it only hurts those one lies to, and it hurts the ones lying. case in point for me. 4 years ago in Austin Texas I was in a relationship with a woman that shall remain nameless; for a period of 3 years. during those three years she told me to my face that she loved me, she wanted to marry me and all these wonderful things. though to other people but on the streets, in malls, and over the internet; she told them I was stalking her, she was afraid of me. She actually claimed to people online that i had "followed her home and cut her face with a knife leaving horrible scars." what she did not know was some of our mutal friends got the message and was shocked that her face had magically healed over night and that I was "out of jail" not 1 day later as I appeared online. nice trick considering in the legal system in texas they hold you for 3 months before they must indite you or release you. they will not hold you for less the 3 months less they know they have no case as they want to bleed every dime they can out of you. they receive from the state $150 a day a person spends in jail. It took 3 years of these constant lies before I tossed her to the side. during this time she managed to tell 3 of my long term friends [more then 2 decades] that she loved THEM. and got them to actually attack me! all three times I got away. so yes I have serious issues of Trust. I am trying very hard to trust what others tell me; truely I am. but its hard when I hear the saem things from other people; nearly word for word. lies I have heard and seen before. It makes it very hard to trust people. so If I seem short to someone remember: I'm healing for a deep wound. Its not me talking but the pain.
