Current mood: determined
It's so easy to forget yourself
When the world rushes in.
I found myself swept up in all of it,
losing myself in it, forgetting myself in it.
And now I've taken the step back,
to take the time I need
to find myself again
I know what it is I want out of life.
I always have, I just have the tendency to become wrapped up
and losing sight of what it is I want, what it is I need.
I'm going back to school, obviously, that's a given. The decision I face now is what to major in. Part of me wants to go for the R.N., while another part of me wants to take Psychology and go on towards my masters degree in it, because I've always loved listening to people, and learning about them, and the way the mind works on an emotional level has always fascinated me.
I want to see my writing published, either through song or book, as I have since I was young. I want a home to call my own, a house with a big yard, huge dog, and lots of grass and trees to sit under. I someday soon want a man to share the rest of my life with. And I've always wanted to be a mom.
What I need now, is just to set things in motion, which was what this break is over. I took a few days, and I wrote out a few lists and letters to myself, as I always have done, and put all of my priorities in order.
I've gone through the whole spectrum of reasons and emotions, analyzing as always, and measured and weighed the value of everything in my life.
Dont ask-- I won't tell you what they were. Sometimes there are just things you need to handle alone, and you don't feel the need to lay all the cards on the table, and air out your laundry for all the world to see.
Those of you who know me best know that I never do anything without reason, my whole heart, and a helluva lot of thought.
