ok so here goes this is my first blog ever and i have a big secret ok so i was sitting on the couch last nite and my cousins boyfriend had lit up a joint and we started smoking and he had always told me he wanted to fuck me but i said no b/c he went out with my cousin and he stole my hat and i said u cant do that and he said yes i can and i took it bak and he leand in to my face and by that time i was so high i didnt know what i was doing and i said u kno u want to kiss me and he said no u want to kiss me and i said no u want to kiss me and i said if u want to kiss me why dont u go for it which was a big mistake b/c he kissed me and i kissed him bak in my heart i knew it was wrong but it felt so right that i couldnt stop and we got done kissing and we sat bak and watched a little more of Tila Tequla and he kissed me again and we couldnt stop kissing but by this time everyone else was alseep and we didnt stop kissing and we moved to the bed kissing and the next thing i know is we are having sex on his bed and i woke up at 4:00a.m. and i was like wat in the fuck did i just do and i got a cigerettee and went into the bedroom and put my clothes bak on and layed down in my bed and waited to be woke up in the morning but as i was laying there i started to cry and i felt so bad that i had to go to the bathroom and splash my face with water and it still didnt make me feel any better i was thinking OH MY GOD WHAT DID I JUST DO!!.and i was thinking this was a mistake and i should have never done it but it was to late it had already happened i cant even look at my cousin the same by the way my cousins name was michelle and her boyfriends name was frank i really want to know the real names message me and i will tell u i did this at my sisters house...im going to hell
