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What are you waiting for?
When has life gone too far in rending ones emotions asunder. The Fates playing their role as creators of destiny, all but at the flip of the divine coin deciding as to what happens.
Heart and mind seek love and loyalty, all while spirit and body seek connection and desire. Many come forward only rousing body and mind, leaving the heart to long for what it awaits and leaves the spirit alone confined within solitude.
Many cycles have passed seeking for what can not be found, longing for what can not be felt, desiring what can not be had. Feeling alone and desolate. No one knowing the pain that fills and eats away the soul, eats away my life.
When shall my lady come to me, when shall The Goddess ease my suffering. Where is she, she that haunts my memories, my dreams, my life
And so the time has come, when nothings left to feel
flesh beckons to taste the longing kiss of steel.
there are those, that will be disappointed with me
but i care not, its not for them to see.
why hath the fates need to play cruel games on me, showing me true love and taking it away within a moments time of a day.
what wrongs have I must done in a former life to be treated so heinously in matters of love and heart.
why hath my heart be wrenched to and fro like a long boat in a raging storm.
what is my purpose in this all, this charade of life and love.
why hath my heart be born to always love knowing it shall be torn asunder.
what is the reasoning in this madness, this fixation to love and be loved.
why hath i fallen for she, she who fits me like no other has or ever will.
what have i done to deserve to find the one to give me a happiness no other can bring me, and yet cant wholly have.
why hath i been forsaken to love she, she who is my heart, she who is my twinflame, my mate.
what must i endure further to be graced with her love again, if i will ever be graced by her presence again.
soon, the kiss of steel will beckon unto me, calling me to share in its embrace. soon, oh so very soon, it will say my name like a long lost fiend enticing me with its release. soon, i must make a decision as to whether i will accept the call and release my pain through blood, or carry the ache within me, waiting...longing.
Your eyes are like an abyss, but not one to fear;
but rather to embrace and hold dear.
Its easy to get lost in your sight;
for that's when my heart and soul take flight.
Your gaze is hypnotic and puts me in a loving trance;
when we get home our hearts, minds, bodies and souls will forever dance.
When was it that it went wrong,
Where was it that we lost the song,
For many a sleepless night we'd share,
For we had to each other, our lives, our souls to bare,
Cast out into the gloomy dark alone,
Wandering into the same great void I had always known,
A gaping, petulant hole thrust into me,
Emptiness, a void for all who care to see,
Leave me in silence, suffering eternally and internally
For she, the one that I thought once completed me.
Once, what was found within my arms is now found in others,
Once, what was privileged unto me, is now gifted to another,
Once, what was whole, now bleeds from a seething wound,
Once, what was mine has been stripped away from thee,
Once, what was unforgettable has now faded into nothingness,
Once, what was standing tall and whole now lays broken and bleeding,
Once, what was filled with joy is now a vast void darkness,
Once, what was given a sense of completion now stands shattered,
Once, what was wonderful now hurts with an unimaginable pain,
Once, what was a man is now a broken boy left crying,
Once, what was filled with love is now filled with a sorrow only a steel kiss can cure...
Once the wind carried a whispered name, sending fleeting thoughts within my head;
Wondering where she is instead, I rather her to be within my arms but i awake she was just a dream;
A night of fancy indulged delight, brought to me a great and terrible fright, my dream was real, a vision brought to me shared with she I could see no more;
Years of five had passed and nothing naught of love came to me, alone i was i felt outcast, in my head a burden dream of my past;
How was it I continued on, when a lone misery was brought with each new dawn;
Then once the morning broke, misery hadnt gone from me only took time to show a scene to me;
a twisted car of metal wreckage, pillared house of white and aged brick, she who cried and wailed, a loss of life she knew to well;
Years of ten had passed, when upon the net i met at last, she who cried upon a phone for life lost in years gone;
Visions made real, misery left no longer needing company, left me to be with she, she who is my Visionry.
The nights were gloomy and daunting, then at last the clouds part ways revealing the ray of guidance i seek.
She shall always shine love down upon me, blessing me with her light. her wisdom is infinite, beauty unsurpassed and knowledge unknowable.
Though with all the patience of a mother she guides me towards more than i can be, more than i am.
In all my humbleness, I kneel and raise my hands up to her to feel my life blessed by her light guiding me on my onward journey.
For she is The Lady of the Night and my Goddess
