Solitary, all alone... me, myself and I
I've fought so long to get to here and now I wonder why
As I look back over my life, there is so much that I see
The happy times, the sad ones, the experiences that molded me
I used to be this carefree girl, as many would probably say
In spite of what I lived at home I had dreams of "one fine day"
I had no doubt that people were good, I trusted to the core
My heart was posted on my sleeve, my intentions completely pure
My soul was splayed, like an open book, whatever you wanted to know
My dreams, my hopes, my secret thoughts, I would oh so willingly show
But over time my dreams and hopes, the secrets I shared so willingly
Were mocked by those I trusted, one by one they died peacefully
I awakened one morning with no more dreams and nothing to live my life for
All I had been, the girl that I was, was gone she lived no more
I couldnt blame the others who broke my heart, and the ones who broke me down
I put myself out there, unguarded, no safety, and I hit the fucking ground
But I picked myself up, dusted off, nursed my wounds for a bit
Then I squared my shoulders, sorry to say, because I knew that this was it
Okay?
I put on the face that you want to see... you're not looking into my eyes anyway
I speak the words you want to hear... my opinion means nothing today
I hold back the tears until I'm alone... I don't want to burden your life with my pain
I smile and laugh and joke and things, but secretly I feel I'm going insane
I'm still praying for a time, a place, a person, for a peace of mind
Where I can just be me again, and not feel so fucking blind
I want to be alive, carefree I want to trust and love and play
I want to be loved for who I am. Nothing else. That's It. Okay?
