I sit here and wonder do you even give a damn about me any more? I mean one day I'm your answer to all you pain and hurt feelings and then the next day you forget about me. What that hell is going on,ya,ya,don't give me that line that you been busy because you have time for others but not me, thought we were friends,hell I thought of you as more then just a friend. I thought of you as someone i could always trust and believe in. But now your acting like i'm dead to you. Earler this week I got asked about my writting if I was talking about hurting myself of killing myself,but I got asked by someone other then you.Which in a way I'm happy because it means that someone I've cared about for a very long time at least cares some what for me. But the point is it should have came from you. But the more I try to reach you the more you close yourself off to me,what the hell. So what if I was talking about hurting myself or killing myself in my writting, I doubt you'd give a damn. You know what, I've never done anything ,but been there when you needed someone to talk about anything and everything,I never asked for a thank you are anything,because where I come from if you care about someone then you let them know even when they don't want to know. It's what you do when you care and love someone, I'm sorry but this has been killing me for a long time. I'm not writting this to hurt anyone or to start anythng with anyone,if you took it that way I am sorry from the deepest part of my soul and heart. But I can't stand it anymore,I love you to much just as I love a few other people to not say that what's happening isn't killing me. I will do anything for you anything but I won't lie to you or to myself just so you don't have to feel too much. Sorry but I can't do that.
