ok well i dont hate it really but god every year it is so hard to get into the mood for it you know? dont get me wrongi love watching dylan have so much fun but every year i cry cuz i miss my brothers. they died 16 years ago and the holidays have sucked since then.and it seems the more time goes by the more i find it harder and harderto get into the christmas mood. i tried this year i put the tree up and had it all kinda of kick ass looking. the tree was just so beautiful till my pets DESTORED it.so i said fuck it for now lol and while im getting all the stuff for dylan for christmasi am also planing his birthday party. is birthday is dec 23 rd lol
but it s all worth it for him. maybe thatsthe real meaning of Christmas, doing all of it out of love for someone eles.
