I'd like to get a prostitute.
Who wouldn't right? But there is a real fascination with me as of late. It's the IDEA of it that has me... the reality still makes me turn away a bit. I don't mean any disrespect to the women who do this, it's just the whole "STD/getting your money stolen" cliches that hold so strongly to the profession. I read something in Playboy some time ago where they talked about women who do this and make an effort to build themselves a positive reputation at it. A website which catalogs and rates them on their performance. Seems a step in the right direction. I also watched a program on TV about the Bunny Ranch in Las Vegas, which houses some proud and thorough professionals. I try to take a little time to consider the appeal. Buying a fantasy is often worth the money if it means enough to you. Besides... if most guys are like me... they can recycle that fantasy into some solo work for months, even years to come. The question then becomes
"If I was going to pay for one... what would I want?"
I've been contemplating that question for a while now. It's been a journey of self exploration. What is it I want in a fantasy? I made a kind of list in my head. Perhaps you will see something in it that I don't.
I like the idea of a woman with class. Charm. I don't believe this to be mutually exclusive to the profession, and as such need one who is at peace with what they do for a living.
I want one who will take some time to get to the money making. You pay them for their time apparently, so it's not likely to be a big problem, but I like not to be rushed. I like to develop a rapport with the woman. Flirt. Tease.
This comes to my next bit... the tricky part. I want to tease her as much as she does me. I want for her to desire what is to come and not see it as a chore to be gotten through. I like the idea of taking my time and having that create an emotional dynamic.
Lastly is the part that may well cut out the whole prostitute thing all together. I DON'T want to know it's a sure thing. I like the suspense. I like not being sure how far it will go. There is an electricity there. Not just anticipation... but a kind of effort. Putting on your own personal best in the hopes of your own mental "best case scenario". It's so much more exciting when it works out.
I think the bottom line for me is... I can't KNOW it's a pro. Somebody would have to buy it for me or something. And to be honest... there are not many I would trust to play to my own personal tastes for such a thing. Maybe I should just try to meet somebody real... It could work... you think?
Ken
