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14 Signs Your Online Relationship Isn't Working Out

14) You discover that "Chesty McBust" isn't her real name, and she's dialing in from Langley, VA.

 

13) You: Large, hairy man. Your online girlfriend: Large, hairy man.

 

12) Her postmaster rejects your e-mail not as "undeliverable" but as "unlikely to get you anywhere."

 

11) After months of shared experiences and emotional investments, she attacks you in the Mines of Quarn with a Vorpal Sword when she learns you're worth 45,000 points.

 

10) "Returned mail: User unknown and never wants to hear from you again."

 

9) Your cyber-lover is just too busy editing that silly little Top 5 List.

 

8) Getting perhaps a bit too comfortable, she lets a reference to cutting her chin shaving slip by.

 

7) You discover that she has been cutting and pasting her orgasms.

 

6) You can barely make out your C. L.'s face in the JPEG she sent because she's obscured by her 25 cats.

 

5) He claims to be the richest man in the world, but his GIF looks like some geek who works for a software company.

 

4) Since her first e-mail, Make.Money.Fast!@cyber-promotions.com has become cold and distant.

 

3) She's suddenly changed her address to comingout@lesbian.com

 

2) Ken Starr launches an investigation into your relationship with the mysterious "tubby@whitehouse.gov"

 

1) In an ironic twist of fate, you discover that the object of your affection is a curvaceous 18 year old, rather than the geeky 14 year old boy she'd pretended to be.

I've been going through so much lately. Health wise, work wise, life in general. Constantly feeling as though I'm going to lose my mind. Now I have begun a new journey. A journey to find myself, hopefully. Also, I am pondering on the idea of creating a magazine specifically aimed for the alternative crowds. Yes its been done before, but I want to put a different twist on it! So, I will be ol more often soon, I promise. Til then, Keep in touch, message me, im me, and I will share the love when I return!

Enough Said?

I know you you were too short you had bad skin you couldn't talk to them very well words didn't seem to work they lied when they came out of your mouth you tried so hard to understand them you wanted to be part of what was happening you saw them having fun and it seemed like such a mystery almost magic made you think that there was something wrong with you you'd look in the mirror trying to find it you thought that you were ugly and that everyone was looking at you so you learned to be invisible to look down to avoid conversation the hours days weekends ah the weekend nights, alone where were you in the basement? in the attic? in your room? working some job? just to have something to do just to have a place to put yourself just to have a way to get away from them a chance to get away from the ones that made you feel so strange and ill-at-ease inside yourself did you ever get invited to one of their parties you sat and wondered if you would go or not for hours you imagined the scenarios that might transpire they would laugh at you if you would know what to do if you would have the right things on if they would notice that you came from a different planet did you get all brave in your thoughts like you were going to be able to go in there and deal with it and have a great time did you think that you might be "the life of the party" that all these people were gonna talk to you and you would find out that you were wrong that you had a lot of friends and you weren't so strange after all? did you end up going did they mess with you did they single you out did you find out that you were invited because they thought you were so weird yeah, I think I know you you spent a lot of time full of hate a hate that was pure as sunshine a hate that saw for miles a hate that kept you up at night a hate that filled your every waking moment a hate that carried you for a long time yes I think I know you you couldn't figure out what they saw and the way they lived home was not home your room was home a corner was home the place they weren't- that was home I know you you're sensitive and you hide it, because you fear getting stepped on one more time it seems that when you show a part of yourself that is the least bit vulnerable someone takes advantage of you one of them steps on you they mistake kindness for weakness but you know the difference you've been the brunt of their weakness for years and strength is something you know a bit about because you had to be strong to keep yourself alive you know yourself very well now and you don't trust people you know them too well you try to find that "special person" someone you can be with someone you can touch someone you can talk to someone you won't feel so strange around and you found that they don't really exist you feel closer to people on movie screens yeah, I think I know you you spend a lot of time daydreaming and people have made comment to that effect telling you that you're "self-involved" and "self-centered" but they don't know, do they about the long nightshifts alone about the years of keeping yourself company all the nights you wrapped your arms around yourself so you could imagine someone holding you the hours of indecision self-doubt the intense depression the blinding hate the rage that made you stagger the devastation of rejection well maybe they do know but if they do they sure do a good job of hiding it it astounds you how they can be so smooth how they seem to pass through life as if life itself was some divine gift and it infuriates you to watch yourself with your apparent skill, and finding every way possible to screw it up for you, life is a long trip terrifying and wonderful birds sing to you at night the rain and the sun the changing seasons are true friends solitude is a hard won ally faithful and patient yeah, I think I know you - Henry Rollins -