I am sorry I havent been around as much. Many things have happend since I left my last blog from the car accident my life mate and I were into.
As it stand my father of 65 years old. Is in a hospitl bed fighting for his life. It is grim. VERY grim. They were to send him home to pass away yesterday till his O2 levels dropped so severly he couldnt do the transport. So He is still in the hospital hooked up to a vent to do his breathing for him. Itis commen to a tough time in my life where Ihave to do his wishes. If there is no chance he can live life with out that tube to make him breath. I am by his wishes an law. TO pull the plug an let him die as he asked for.
His heat is failing his only kidney is failing and his lungs are failing. I hav come to tersm with the fact that he will not be here for his fav holiday. Christmas was his fave timeof the year. It is when we all have our wonderful family times to remember past famil members an share new memories. It is very hard for me right now.
I send my love an my appreciation to my life mate Raphael. He extended his stay here with me so I wouldnt be alone in my time of need. Most men wouldnt do that. Shows me he really does love an care. But son he is gonna have to return home to his beautiful daughter. We got ourself such a great family. Oour children have been very understanding of our problems. An he must return home to her soon. I will be gone off an on there alot soon.But that is here nor there right now. I just want Raphael to know. Being his life mate has been th best thing to ever happen to me. He is the most wonderful man in my life. I love you sweetheart. And I know you will end up seeing this so kisses an all my love to you baby.
As for CT. I will only be here when I am NOT at the hospital awaiting the draded day of my dear dads departure. It is a sad sight indeed. It tears me to the core to watch this man struggle to keep going when in fact his body wants to say forget it.
I wish you all a great time. Dont sweat it to much about me. I will be fine. Raphael is here with me to make sure things go good for a little till he leaves an we dont know when that is just yet. But thank you all in advance for your warm and kind wishes.
You all mean the world to me. With out good true friends this world we live in would die.
Kinky
