Just wondering thoughts. I mean if you care about someone,you should always be there for them even when shit hits the fan. I don't know how many of you know that the lady that I always thought as a second mom has cancer.Well saw her last night and found out that she is going under the knife on the 9 of this month. It's her third time and I'm not to sure if she's going to make it out of this one or not. The doctors or no help either. Also another thing I'm thinking about is how to deal with crap that I'm geting from people,it's like they all have time for me when they need something. But the sec I need them the fly to the four winds. It's like hello people,I'm the one that fix things for you,the least you can do is be there for me every now and then. It's like damn if I do and damn if I don't,then people wonder why I'm comeing off with this fuck you attitude. Well a good friend on hear told me a while back ago you need to grab on to the holy fuck you attitude or something like that. By the way if you read this ,message me,been worried about you C.
