hey
went to the hospitial yesterday
after pokin me and stuff
for about 3 hours
the doc came back in
and said well,
your not going to die.
with tears in my eyes I asked him "you mean ever?"
he says no, of course not, everyone dies at some point
I sighed and said Whew,
dodged a bullit that time
hey you awake over there
no wonder I can't hear ya laughing
I put in all this effort
typing my fingers to the bone
just to make you smile and guess what.
it didnt work
oh well, later....
Lmao, im here.
I was just sittin here cryin
thinkin how much my feelings be hurt if I had any
I been noticing some things
I been thinking some things
about what I been noticing
and I put the two together
and I ponder..........................
then it happens, click
two pieces fit together
then theres another
and another
and another, and another
and just like that
Lol, i love how ur mind works
a picture started forming in my mind
then I realized it was just a duck
but I was thinking of something ya know
a telephone is a wonderful thing
you can call a place
and exchange information
and when ya git done you can hang up
and call some other place
and do it all over again
my mind works kinda like a telephone
except I don't have the hang up feature
my mind stays connected to everywhere I've ever been
everywhere I've ever thought about
to places I can't even imagine yet
most of the time it's like static,
noise, can't tell what anything is
just want to shut it off but I cant
not even when I sleep
after a few years I started getting used to it,
background noise
dont even notice it on a good day
but it's still comming in
and it's being stored
right along with everything else
in a part of my mind that I'm
not using right now
and once in a while
I might be doing anything
and without any warning
a little bit of something leaks through
and it's all by itself
perfectly clear
don't know what it means but it's there
I ponder it for a bit and go
back to what I was doing before
maybe an hour goes by
maybe a day,
or a week,
or a month or more and then
it happens again,
just like before
feels just as strange
still dont know what it means
it's like a cycle maybe
so this goes on
and every so often
I never know when
it happens again
and then something is different
something comes through
and it seems to have something to
do with this other thing
that was already here
and that one there looks like it belongs over here
and that one and, look the one comming through right now,
it goes right here
and just for a second
I think I see what it's suppose to be
it's a
it's a
shit, it's a duck again
but it aint always a duck,
do you see what I mean
sometimes it's bigger
sometimes it's more massive
sometimes it's a goat
I'm still in training
I haven't got anything
that means something yet
just gotta be sure I can when it's time, wait...........
something's there..............
........I can hear it..........
it sounds like........
...Like.....
they changed the channel
now all I'm gettin' is commercials