David Sydal's blog: "nothingness"

dont know where i am today thought i might ask you for directions to my heart dont know where i been thought i could relive a moment again creeps up on me like a fire burning behind me burning at my past and everything I hold dear wishing all can be beautiful again in my dark hellish world wish that i could turn back time again so that i could fix what i've done wrong I wish that i could see a dream come true one that I wished so hard for to come true.

hanging onto nothing, living on broken dreams over and over again everything is fading away nothing is sacred to me anymore i wander back to my origins in shadow like retreat hiding from all the things that used to mean alot to me hanging onto thin threads of life barely breathing life into my already empty self. -david allen bosley

I'm killing my old self today never to let it hold me in the past again launching of a new way to live my life in a fuller way never getting any younger these changes are of design always getting wiser so I use my mind to its fullest extent I seek change from all standpoints every day step by step with patience I shall be Reborn My own destiny in life is my power never looking back again this journey is about to begin. as i dig this hole to bury my past i tell myself i am now at last. -David Allen Bosley

i dont know exactly why i wrote this for but damn it reads so damn good "for the one i wish was here" like it or not I love her boyfriend or no boyfriend i care for her I wish she was here i'll fight fight to the bitter end to win her love to be her man and give her total attention a woman such as her should be respected ,honored ,cherished and loved for who she is. i know i have no chance in hell but nothing is gonna stop me from trying she is who i trust she is my destiny the one i want to share my life and grow old with i will never cheat, i will never lie i'll always be truthful i will do all i can from the bottom of my heart to see this stays so true. in some reality i will always love you -DAVID ALLEN BOSLEY 2006

watch the truth unfold in cold shadows see the reasons why you live in sheltered lives no reason to run no reason to hide just look it in the face and live life completely fearless watch out for the friends who are liars you never know when they'll pull out there Dagger stay close to the ones you love but stay clear if there really monsters no one can make your decisions only you and you alone know when to break free know when to live in rough times be strong the journey ventures out til the end of time

looking to sky watching for traces of what can be tomorrow hopes are hanging high but im gonna just abandon all hope and go on instinct you never can tell from afar whos watching you secretly admiring the way the world stops in your pressance light a candle for you and here's what we'll do to get you from being blue and tear the demons that rip at you show them your in charge and that life is what you make of it. never want to see you drown in this pool of life i'll help you stay afloat and i'll help you win this fight i'll never let you down on this neverending battleground and i'll never walk away and keep you from being slayed forever at your service until the end of time

I must not fail not this time my destiny to have and to hold the one thing that means most in these hard times You I will fight all others who want the Same but none have have the same kind of heart caring ways or the touch im known for giving which makes me one of a kind and unique and sets me worlds apart from the rest my mind is set on this quest. through hell i been through all this time and i feel at peace when im with you

nothing really seems to matter to the child in the black robe sitting in the corner waiting to be loved no one could ever convince him that love is real too late for it too little to care it was his destiny he was to been the one destiny remains unfulfilled love will always deny him truth will never be told lies are what will unfold never look in my soul again in the end the demons will win

shelter me from the truth shelter me from the fear tell me that im able to be sheltered from life itself sheltered from the storms shelter myself from her and all that she told me shelter me from the past and go kill my future self and if you are able shelter me from these broken dreams and this god damn broken heart only if your able ....

in the garden he hides his secrets from all to see from things that happened to him and all the things he fears he tosses everything from his past in to the ground from images of childhood to memories of heart break to all his fears as if it was a seed everything in the ground so he can grow a new life drom square one a new life doesnt mean he'll get quick results but will give him a chance to fix the things he wrecked up before to build hope and trust that was lost over time and to bring smiles to the hurt and the lost never once has he said he was perfect for yet he is only a man who hides in darkness to cover up his lonely life his kind acts make up for everthing and then some to all that are creeped out dont be afraid he is the most caring individual more than you'll ever know of.