It's another night where I can't sleep. Once again my mind wanders to you. I wonder will this be the rest of my life. Alone night after night. I live in a place where I see old lonely people. I can't but look at them and say your looking at yourself. I know there's more to life then lovers and love, but it would be nice to have just one true love before I die. I'm not getting any younger. I've already given up my dream of being a mom, which hurts like hell. But my 20's are almost over. I mean by the time my grandma,mom,aunts where my age they already had a hand full of kids. Like I said I already gave up one of my dearest heart's dreams,I don't want to give up another. I just what my heart dream of one lifetime love to come true. If it ever comes to past,I'd gladly give the rest of my hearts dreams up. Enough with my inner thoughts,lets move on to my outer thoughts. Like my new place. At times it feels like home and I'm right where I should be. But on nights like this one it doesn't feel real or right. But I think about the old place and sadly that no longer feels like home either. So My heart longs for an answer, where is it's home. At times I feel centered,and there's times like now,where I feel lost and have nothing to ground me. It all feels like a dream. Real but not real. Like I'm asleep yet awake at the same time. Where is the arms meant to hold me,Wheres the heart meant to warm me,Wheres the soul meant to be my home? I don't have a clue. I feel so lost right now and so alone. I could go on about more of my thoughts and feelings,but I won't bore you any longer.
