moomoo's blog: "Notes"

I hate you I want to cut your wrist Then,let you lie there Drenched in blood And, when your blood dries up You looking Pale as a ghost I'll celebrate with a glass of wine From your favorite bottle I hate you I want to cut off your dick Put on the grill With your favorite greens And, let it burnt I'll serve it to you On your favorite plate With you favorite beer And a note saying "I hate you"

When I was a young girl Looking up the night skies I wished upon a falling star That when I grow up It will give me a fine man To fall in love The day I see you My wish came true What a beautiful face you have I fell in love instantly Hoping you'll do the same for me The feelings so naive Sometimes I laughed at myself I foolishly pour all my love In your heart That is filled by another person In your eyes I can see a reflection of her In your heart I can feel you are missing her In your song I can hear her favorite tune In your words I can see her,not me Even so I refused to walked away Even if I'm going to die Unsatisfied I'll stay by your side

You stand,tired of the surrounding Torn and fragile You desperately looking For a way out Its not the first time The feeling has spoken You have always deny its existence Rejecting it Pushing it away When it emerge from Your own shadows You fear,powerless against The vulnerability that has overtaken your soul Slowly moving itself to Your heart Your life, once again Standing in this stationary lonesome When what seems to be right is wrong Escape, is no answer You've been there before Nothing is going to stop This rising feeling

There are words Not meant to say There are things Not meant to tell Even if we are burden With the words Kept in the heart Its meant to stay that way Some words Just don't meant to be say Even if there comes a time When it is needed to tell But the silence sometimes Tells it all Even the lips hasn't spoken In the heart It is already known The words That was not meant to say

She bids him farewell Walking to the side of the man She had just fallen in love with He watched her leave Even if its breaking his heart He kept his silence And, walked away A month later She came to him in tears Full of sorrow, as though she is dying He offered his shoulder And, she cried all night The next day She bids him farewell She's in love Again One day An accident took his life away Standing beside his soulless body She sees his existence His diary was handed to her And she flipped to read the pages ..... Sunny day She, my fantasy, my everything is in love again.The man looks great.I'm happy.Seeing her cheerful smile brighten my heart. As long as she's happy, I'll be happy. ..... Rainy day The guy left her.Tears flow as she leaned on my shoulder.My heart was teared into shreds seeing her in tears. ..... Cloudy day She is in love again. ..... She closed the book She never felt so lonely She could hear him speaking But the room was bare She didn't see him An emptiness inside to which She could not relate A broken heart, so painful She have never felt it before Alone, she walked down the boulevard Wondering why She never sees him

The year has finished And soon to be gone A new year Is right by the door Waiting to come into My little life I looked back and I smiled I've fall and I've rise I've tears and I've laughter I've friends and I've foes I've held and I've let go The time is here To taste the fresh scent Of a new year Leave the sadness And welcome a new day We will still be reminded Of things we've let go But, slowly, like Reading a new book We have a new story to tell For the new year

You are a woman's man The best qualities of a man is found in you To a woman, you are the treasure That only God would have for himself An angel in disguise in a human form You have the goodness a man can only hope for but none possess You are a wonderful living That one would hope to grow old with To held your hands in every passage of life Till the end of the road You are a woman's man Your path is filed with beautiful women Gazing at your fine soul Each of them wants you To be their guardian of their solitude Feeding on your love As if you are the only man In the galaxy You are a woman's man I wish you were mine I wish the distance between us falls Our eyes will meet one day In real That, when you are old and grey I'm the one Sitting beside you by the fire Reading to you And when night falls we shall sleep Alongside each other Sharing the same dream

I count the miles we are away from each other I count the days when you are not around I count the number of fingers you had Making sure you have every one of them I count the toes too I tried counting the hairs on your legs But there is too many,I lost count I like to be near you Watch you sleep Watching you sleep makes me calm Part of it is because when you asleep I can see you, to feel you And to know, you aren't somewhere far from me And, when the moment arrives When we have to part I'll remember we had a love More than any other love A love that is only known By the two of us A love, so heavenly That the angels wants it too Envying me and you They took you away And so, my darling You are taken away from me Before your tomb, I stand Full of sorrows Praying to GOD To take me too So, I'll be by your side once again

I walked away doesn't mean I stop caring It means there is no us anymore I left is not that I don't love you anymore Its the realization that our relationship is getting nowhere I've love you all my life To let go is not to hurt you But to allow us to have a chance To face new challenges Before we both fall into misery I know to let go is my choice alone Its never you There is never a problem There is nothing to fix Please don't deny it, just accept it Don't hold back, just let go Even if your heart cries in anguish Sometimes it is only through letting go The heart will find its way

It's not that I'm inadequate It's not that I can't give you enough It's that you wanted more More than what I can give More than my powers will allow me I can't breath anymore With you around I tried so hard to compensate The lost love you had To make you feel better But, I'm never competent enough Compared to your last love Furious at my own misery I'm giving up slowly I can't go on anymore Without you inside of me I'll grieve But, I realized I can never Keep you with me