"Not Okay"
(July 05')
by: me
I am not fucking okay
all I hear is you
screaming at me
making my stomach to curl
I am terrified
please do not hurt me anymore
you can clearly see
the fear in my eyes
on most days
you just walk away
pretending you do not see me
on other days
you say that your sorry
suffocating me with your lies
just let me breathe
your words will never heal
making me to run away
to live in my own world
where you can never hurt me again
but I am still terrified of you
and now of everyone else
crying out for attention
yet none is there
no ones gives a shit
as long as I smile
and say that I am okay
but I am not okay
I am not fucking okay
I am not.
*** I wrote this during a very bad part of my life, that I wish I could erase...but it has made me a stronger woman***
