Today is valentines day, and honestly I have never been a fan. Most of the time I am single but I thought this year would be different, boy was I wrong. I got a text message yesterday from Kortnie, a girl whom I had met through Jerry who was my boyfriend. The text stated that he had been cheating on me, and I felt my heart shatter at the slightest idea of that. He called so I questioned him about it, an immeadiately he got defensive after telling me that it was not true. Then before I knew it he was saying that he would rather end our relationship tghen deal "with this shit" as he put it. And just like that I wasted another year of my life because before I knew it we had hung up and it was over. You see I have not had the best luck with males, there has been only one guy in my past that did not cheat on me, but he abused me verbally and physically. I never really shared this with anyone and now I am sharing this with all of fubar, sheesh what the hell am I thinking?! I guess I just need to get it out finally. Well I guess this is a start to a self help journey... Who knows maybe someday I will be able to look back at this and laugh... Who knows...
