His strength is never enough
just passing smile through my window
a casual word I hear over and over
reminds me and makes me laugh inside.
But to him my love is never enugh
not needed, not wanted
he causes my cries
then wants to know how he can quiet them.
A shot of ignorance poured into a wine glass
his faith is never enough
a fleeting feeling of security
a warm embrace that fades into the days that pass.
Like a feeling I cannot keep
so sincere to hear but so painful to feel
second best, someone stealing my spot
my treasure, but who can own love.
My smiles are never enough
when half of the time they are lies
just a show I perform for others
who never seem to see past my costume.
Sometimes it really doesn't matter
but sometimes it leaves me empty
they are not enough just a chilling
phrase meant to be warm.
A love that's only there sometimes
or not at all, what is enough
are you enough, am I trusting you
too much because I need to trust so badly.
I need you, to feel loved
even if it's just for a little while
I can hope someday I'll find it
or maybe I already have.
~~January 17, 2007~~
All My Soldiers Loves Me
