1534203's blog: "Not easy"

I believe you can love someone more than anything in the world. This is even if they don't and wont ever love you in the same way. They can have no idea how much you love them and you will continue to love them even then. It's not something that is futile,it's a love that you will never give someone else,a love that you will never feel for someone other than them. You will love another and be completely happy with them,but always love that one person in a different way. Not a painful love,not a disappointment,just a love like no other.

Sometimes I don't know me. I look in the mirror and see a stranger. I used to be happy and then over time it was gone. I am not who I used to be and who I once loved being. I can't seem to figure out what I am looking for. I think I find it and then it slips quickly from my grasp. Maybe I don't fight hard enough to keep what I want. Maybe I just don't think I should have to fight for something that is meant to be mine. Some days,I just don't know what I am looking for.

You say you love me. Tell me you want to be with me. Am I the one? Am I always going to be in your heart and arms? I dream of living my life with you. These things are not easy for me to believe. Just words you whisper and no promises made. I know what it is like to stand in front of you and look into your eyes,see your pain and sorrow. It's not easy trusting someone with your heart again. Not for me and not for you,but without trust we will have nothing. I see you in my dreams and you are in my thoughts,I am never without you even when your not here. I would love nothing more than to be by your side everyday for the rest of my life,but am I really the one?