I jump as the phone rings.
This can't be more bad news.
Looking on the caller ID before answering,
I find myself starting to shake
As the name and number appears.
The doctor's voice is on the other end.
Calm and cool he asks for me.
When he finds out it's me,
The tone in his voice changes
And not for the good.
Worry resounded in his voice,
As he tells me he's got bad news.
Tears run down my face,
No longer able to control them.
Fear has now taken over.
Cancer!
Not again!
I thought we were through with this.
Now the dark disease has taken over
New parts of my body.
I'm not strong enough to fight.
I can't do this.
Don't actually know if I want to.
Nothing in life is easy,
But damn, why me? Why again?
All the tests;
All the drugs.
Can my heart hold out?
Either way,
Whether surgery or drugs,
I have no choice.
My kids need me.
God give me the strength!
