NY's blog: "no title yet "

I didnt fall for u i wasnt tripped didnt drift didnt slip i didnt accidently feel emotions based on the sensation of your lips the vast oceans in your hips this bliss was written in sanskirt before our first glance first dance our first kiss before we were born and dead and gone no time soon god willing our love will live on a silhouette of your perfect frame whispered my name across time divinely designating your mine your perfect imperfections cherished i live to hear the sweet melodies of your voice my soul is convinced not because you seduced you see love is a choice and as our darks become grays every second of everyday the scent of our love shall remain new through ups ,downs highs ,lows because my heart depends on it love it a choice and ill always choose you   

never again will i look back never again shall i let our old love knock me off track i once believed u could and would change but like alway's u still remained the same the cutest smirk the kinkiest wink the uncountable times of making love on the sink we once were strong but weakened with your wrongs i should've known this time around wouldn't last that long i put my soul and mind into the thought of forever now my body and mind along with my mouth scream out never i remember the numerous blissed dreams of success yet u were unworthy of me at my best once i stopped looking through those cannabistic eye's i was really able to discipher the many untruths or as many say lies the pain burns me far within often making one wonder will i win again but see as my heart renewed my soul got stronger my intellect loving it u will miss it and im so far gone i'm soaring to new height's uncontrollably through my doing right i wont look back because i will lose sight of what's important and i refuse to if people are seasons this one was a hurricane there for im done no more

SHATTERED GLASS EVERYWHERE WHERE I LIVE INSIDE MY GLASS HOUSE FROM WHICH I SEE PARTYING TO THE BREAK OF DAWN LIKE THEY DONT CARE YELLING AND SCREAMING PARTY OVER HERE SO IF WE ALL HAPPY WHO BROKE THE GLASS ? NEWSPAPERS TELL ME IT WAS THE SAME OLD BLAME FROM THE SAME OLD GAME OF SHAME STAINS OF RED TURNING BROWN FROM THE PAIN OF OPENED WOUNDS SHOTS AND CUTS , STABBING THE AGGRESIVE TO THE PASSIVE LEAVING CHURCH OR HOME PRAYING FOR A SAFE PASSAGE BUT STILL WHO BROKE THE GLASS THAT BREAKS MY STRIDE STEPPING HIGH PAST LIT CANDLES IN A MEMORIALTO SHATTERED GLASS EVERYWHERE GLASS AND SHARDS CATCHING LIGHT IN A REFLECTION ALWAYS AVAILABLE FOR INSPECTION OR A DRINK FROM A LIFE MIRROR HOW SLEAZY ARE THE HANDS THAT HOLD FATE SO CALLOULY IN DISREGARD MY GOD! IT WAS AN ACCIDENT OR A MOMENT OF DECEPTION TRUTH BE TOLD I WAS SOLD OUT IN THE MOMENT OF ANGER AND I DROPPED THE GLASS OF MY BROTHER MAN BECAUSE HE DROPPED MY BROTHERS MAN IT WASNT PLANNED BUT I JUST COULDNT STAND THE LOOK FROM HIS MIRROR BARING ME IN HIS IMAGE I BROKE THE GLASS AND SHATTERED MY LIFE AND THAT OF ANOTHER I BROKE THE GLASS I WAS FED UP WITH THE LIGHT AND LIES I WAS GIVEN I BROKE THE GLASS BECAUSE I WASNT USE TO THE LIGHT WE BREAK THE GLASS EVERYTIME WE TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED PEOPLE ALWAYS REMAIN AFRAID OF LIKE IMAGES DEFINING THEM IN THE MIRROR  

I FELT FOR IT ONCE AND TWICE AGAIN YOUR WORD THE POISONOUS DRUG PRESENTED LIKE CANDY I SWALLOWED YOUR BITTER PILL GLADLY IT CHANGED MY WHOLE OUTLOOK AND GAVE ME HOPE AND SNATCHED IT BACK SENT ME ON A ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS WHEN MY ANGER WAS KINDLED YOU GAVE IT TO ME TO EASE THE COMMOTION I LOVE YOU IS JUST A PHRASE SOMETHING TOO SAY WHEN I BEGAN TO DESPISE.THE LIE'S THAT THE PILL MADE ME ACCEPT THEY SERVED AS TRANQUILIZERS TO PUT TO SLEEP MY FREE WILL AND SENSE OF SELF RESPECT YOU BUILT ME UP TOLD ME SWEET NOTHINGS I"M THIS I"M THAT AND MUCH MORE TO BE EXACT I TOOK THESE THINGS TO HEART BECAUSE I KNOW I"AM IN FACT YOU MADE ME BELIEVE THAT I"AM DIFFERENT BUT I'VE COME TO TERMS WITH THE FACT THAT TO YOU I" AM NOT I'M JUST THE FILLER THE ONE TO SATIATE YOUR RIGHT NOW NEEDS AND BE DIPOSED OF WHEN I DECIDE TO STOP LETTING YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE OF MY MERCY YOU CAN NO LONGER FOOL ME FROM THE BEGINNING YOU WERE SELECTIVELY TRUTHFUL REVEALED THE TRUTH WHEN YOU WANTED BUT DEMANDED ALL OF IT FROM ME AND WHEN IT CAME DOWN TO HOW YOU FELT ABOUT ME YOU HID YOUR FEELINGS LED ME ON TO BELIEVE I WAS SOMETHING TRUE THE TRUTH SUGAR COATED AND HID THROUGH SUBLIMINAL MESSAGES AND LACK OF ACTION I'M HIP TO YOU ON HOW YOU TRY TO KISS AWAY THE PAIN YOU'VE CAUSED BECAUSED YOU KNOW YOU WERE WRONG YOUR GIFTS AND YOUR KISS WILL NO LONGER QUIET THE HUNGER FOR SUBSTANCE  THEY WILL NO LONGER HUSH MY SPEECH WHEN YOU DONT WANT TO HEAR MY EXPRESSION YOU TELL ME SPEAK UP AND EXERCISE MY RIGHTS BUT SHUT ME DOWN WHEN MY TRUTH DOESN'T CATER TO YOUR ELECTION I WANT TO BELIEVE YOU WHEN SAY YOU CARE I WANT TO BELIEVE YOU WHEN YOU SAY YOU'LL BE THERE BUT ONE DAY YOU MEAN IT AND THE NEXT DAY YOU TAKE IT BACK THE TRUTH IS YOU KNOW JUST WHAT TOO SAY IN ORDER TO GET YOUR WAY AND I DONT INTEND TO STICK AROUND FOR YOU TO LEAVE YOUR MARK AND KEEP ME BOUND I KNOW MY WORTH AND I"AM A TEMPLE WORTHY TO DEFEND YOU'RE GOIN TO MISS ME WHEN I'M GONE AND WHEN I'VE ERASED MY EXISTENCE FROM YOUR RECORD YOU'LL RECONIZE THE POWER I HOLD WITHIN