I do not even know how to begin this....except...when a human being says NOis is NO..no license....feeling...or living arrangement, gives anyone the right to violate your baby..space and mind and soul ..when you say NO
you are still a person ..
I would like to share the turmoil and waterfall of emotions one experiences when this is violated by anyone
AND when that ANYONE is really SOMEONE...you have a personal relationship with or had....it is live changing and the outcome is never known....
it becomes worse ...the ultimate betrayal and hurt does begin to cover the emotions and degradion you feel inside...the death of your soul
I would like die..yet want them to die...(at my hands) ..I feel "less then" ...yet angry at their....i blame myself ..them ..others..and many other factors ..in turn over and over again..I want 3very one to know what that person did..YET too ashamed t do it and let them see me vulnerable.
I want to thinmk I am dreaming and I will wake up
and yet I don't ...I am not me ..yet I am...I feel like two totally different people at the same time
HELP them please before I go mad