No clue what to do about my mother's downward turn with health
Current mood: stressed
Just need to rant about what I have been silently been going through with my mother's health ordeal the last couple months. Those of you who know me well already know my mother has some severe health issues with her back being the worse as of recent year or so. The last 3 months now it has gotten to the point were she can't even walk without taking lots of pain medications and the last few weeks they haven't even helped. About two months ago she fell in the bathroom fracturing two ribs compounding the pain. For the last two weeks I have had to take care of her because she can only stand or walk far enough to go to the bathroom. The last week now all she has done is cry because of the pain and pray to god to just die. I have been trying to push for her insurance company and doctors to do something to help but just keep getting the run around. Today we are at the pain management center again trying to get them to push for another MRI so that she can go ahead and get her surgery that she needs on her back. Hopefully this is what we will end up getting to happen soon so far the doctor just ordered the MRI to be done next week so we will have to wait and see the results are to know if surgery is an option to help. The big problem with this is the fact that if she does have the surgery I have know idea how I will be able to work my job considering I will have to wait on here 24 hrs. a day until she is able to after it. I am just so stressed out about all this and have no idea how to deal with it all alone. The only other family member who I can get help from is way to busy with her work to help that much so its all on my shoulders to take care of. My only hope is that my work will be understanding enough to let me come in and leave several times though out the day to check on mom as needed. All this is at the worst time for me considering I work for a car lot and this is our busiest time of year with taxes and all. It's killing me listening to her pray to fall asleep and never wake up and today she warned me to stop leaving my razor blades that I sometimes forget to leave at work around cause they look good and she wants to hurt herself with them. This stress is about to break me mentally because I'm afraid one of these days she may try to hurt herself with all her meds she takes. To top all this off I am sick as a dog hardly able to function as it is.
