NoGirlsToy's blog: "Nick's New Blog"

If I cry tonight, if I fall on my knees I will make sure someday I’ll get back on my feet And If I will fail to get up to pick up my broken pieces I will learn how to crawl out from this corner, and ~ be whole again… Without my past, Without You!

Please say you love me. That this is just a trick. Tell me im lovely. Say your heart is thick. No! don’t turn away. Come back. Come back and stay! Come back. Don’t act this way. Don’t hide your feelings to protect me. Show me your heart I prey. I don’t mind getting hurt open up let me see. I know you have to leave. Just let me know you love me. Sure it will be painful telling what you believe. But im up for the challenge cant you see? No! don’t turn away. Come back. Come back and stay! Come back. Making me hate you wont allow me to stop missing you! So please tell me once more! Please don’t act all cold to me cant you see im miserable too?! By not saying anything your making more sore. Please this is no way of leaving. Don’t you dare tell me not to miss you! Cause I will miss you even if its not relieving! Don’t you love me too? Don’t leave me with rotten memories. I know you don’t want me to be hurt. But your stinging me like bees. Remember the good days when we’d flirt? No! don’t turn away. Come back. Come back and stay! Come back. Please don’t leave me this way. Give me one last good memory. Please just say. I love you, not sorry.

I love you, But you don't love me. I'm dying inside, But I won't let you see. With a river of tears, On the pillow case. Caught up in memories, Of your embrace. I love you, But you don't love me. I'm drowning in a pool, Of sweet misery. Drink it up, Just one more. Till I'm numb inside, Laying on the floor. I love you, But you don't love me. Don't try to help, Just let me be. With bloodshot eyes, And alcohol on my breath. I fear I'm drinking, My life to death. I love you, But you don't love me. You locked my heart up, And threw away the key. You have torn, My life apart. So I tip another, And drink my heart. I love you, But you don't love me. My heart is suffocating, Please set it free. I'm ready to smile, This time for real. But I can't stop drinking, There's too much to feel.

we are not friends any more over stupid things we don't talk any more over stupid things you won't talk to me over stupid things said by both of us not just me. you won't come see me over stupid things said mostly by you. if you forgave? if you let go? you would know we can move on and be friends again? and not still do the stupid things that let up to this.

I lay alone In this cold bed. My mind races with thoughts of you. My head rests on my pillow. The other pillow, your pillow, I hold close, Snuggled to it as I would to you. It’s not the same. You are so far away. I yearn to be close to you. To smell your hair, To feel your warmth, To hear your breathing. My heart aches. I hold your pillow tighter As my teary eyes close. To sleep I fall, To dream of you, To dream of us. May you dream my dreams of us tonight.

Seagulls do fly backwards and I find myself thinking of you at the back of my mind your image hovers and your words softly uttered a breeze of comfort maybe I fall into the trap of kitsch but it's the way it feels I look out of the window music in my head and you are here somehow what you said is like a pillow where I can put my fears to rest This is not an easy time but whatever awaits me in the future it will pass on to be a memory and as the seagulls shriek of happiness because they are alive I think of what you said and smile.

I needed you so bad yeah i needed you like no one ever had but you turned away and let me go i guess i never knew to make me believe to make me believe everytime i see you online i want to scream you were my life my only dream now my heart aches as i sit on my own my wrists are cut and my scars have grown you thought that it was just a game but you forgot that i feel pain life is pointless now you've gone im dead inside, i waited too long i wanted my own fairytale ending i wish that you'd stop to keep silent i'll drown you in the tears i cried my love was always true, i never lied