OZZY714's blog: "NEW POEMS"

UNTITLED... You don't want to know me Who, without this, I'd really be Though I fell completely lost I'll hide who I am at any cost This razor, it's all that keeps me sane I know it's so lame.... But it's the truth, my deep dark secret Now, can you keep it? How twisted am I, that this is what I need That upon this self induced pain I feed You don't want to know me Who, without this, I'd really be No, I'm not okay, but I'll live for now Shhhh...don't through a cow This 'isn't serious, it's like a caffeine addiction Not a serious affliction My razor is the only friend I have Please don't laugh Because who I'd be without this, you don't want to see It feels so shameful to just be me You don't want to know me Who, without this, I'd really be Though, I feel completely lost I'll hide who I am at any cost -------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------ UNTITLED..... Blood fell down my wrists Into my hands, clenched in fists I've cried my last tears Kissed away my precocious fears Now I hop to be next on deaths list For so long I've been life's hated sist I've felt so alone all these years And until now, refusing to shed any tears Blood fell down my wrists Me death would not kiss So long I've wished, BEGGED to die Caught up in my own lie Forever surrounded by my hated fears Cutting all these years So long I've tried to confy But, it seems lately I've been to tired to try My last drops of blood fall from my wrists My hands numb, laxed, no longer in fists so close I am to death i could cry Almost done with this bitter lie Blood, it no longer flows from my wrists Long ago I realized my fists For no I no longer hold tears I even released my fears Once covered in scars I no longer wish to die I no long feel as if i have to lie Now I have Sweet.....Peace....and forever.....I will....Have......Serenity.........

The Sweet Taste Of Love The sweet taste of love Still lingers in my mind A succulent tasty morsel A treasure worth its find A wet and juicy fruit That fills my mouth with joy Like candy to a baby An edible sexy toy With nectar sweet as honey A syrup of flowing silk Like a bubbly kind of lava As smooth as warm clear milk It breathes with scented oils Like a flower in the mist And blossoms when caressed By the feel of a lover's kiss A dessert at its very best When embraced with lots of love I know I'll never get enough Of this treat I'm thinking of

Passion's Flames A touch, soft and tender. A whisper, full of desire A gasp of sweet surrender As passion fuels the fire No words spoken between them No promises to be kept No lies being told tonight No looking back - no regrets Longing to hold each other Such precious little time Both vowed to another Being lonely their only crime Tomorrow bringing sorrow A brief moment of shame With the memory of this one night A release from passion's flames

Where did this begin? How did you make my head spin? How is it that I was unaware Of just how deeply you care? Interrogated, challenged, and tested a generous interest invested Honest discovery or a ruse? caught off guard, did I amuse? Comfort, pleasure and confusion a mixed concoction of revelation and illusion The game afoot, I know not the rules what is at stake, are we just fools? You hunger to make a confession the lie to yourself a sad regression For I see more clearly than you think A threshold before, you teeter the brink You stare impassioned at this emotional abyss bonded by unexpected passion found remiss Stealthily persistent you delved found all the secrets I'd shelved To be dissected and then displayed a riot of conflict on parade The clever acrobat bests the sad clown another day, another circus, another town This attraction, a hell of a ride what to do when thrill seekers collide? Push the envelope, take a chance? Do we leave the party, or shall we dance?

Our Last Night We spent our last time together last night For at least five hours everything felt so right We laughed and talked and held each other She kept changing the radio stations from one to another We ordered room service and had dinner alone It was the first time since we use to do it at home As the night went on time really went fast But this was a moment for us that will always last We started kissing and then we made love We were joined as one from heaven above As the night went on I knew she had to go But there is something inside that both of us know The feeling of love we had was always so true And no one will ever change that for me and you As we kissed and we both started to cry The reason was its not easy to say goodbye. We will be together again we both know In the place in the sky were soul mates go.

YESTERDAY'S!!!! Yesterday I wept to hear the words that were said . We spoke of our life together and you marked that shit as dead. No more idle kisses and no more I love yous. We once were as one but now we’ve come back to two. Each one so much different in judgment and in thought Despite our lessons together both learned and taught Your teachings have marked me for life this I know When I said my feelings had changed Id lied Please Don’t go Then here today I almost wept I turned and I cried I’ve long cherished this love that has seemed to have Died And I tried not to show all the destruction in side And I had it under control till you left then I cried My arms ached to hold you and my lips stung for your kiss My heart was so broken how’d I let it come to this……WITHOUT YOU? Without you here in my life Who am I to be? And were am I to go? What am I to become? And what I to feel? Without you with me in my life And if I ever find another To come and be here by my side I know she’ll never have all of me Cause with our love half of me has died So as you travel down your own path I really do wish you all the best I thought what we had was so much different But we turned out just like everyone else And tomorrow I will surely weep if only in my head Swimming through my memories Of things I should have said As time passes know you’ll always be here in my heart But as time moves on I know I’ll have to make a brand new start…..WITHOUT YOU!!

The Gift Of Friends There are days when bubbling from us comes the innocent child within, who giggles at the little things and wears a silly grin. There are days when melancholy comes to visit for a while; the mind feels tired, the body weak; we have no strength to smile. There are days when joy abundant grabs a hold of you and me; wraps us up in all it's splendor, lifts us up and sets us free. There are days when sorrow wraps us in its cloak of grief and fear, 'till our hearts ache to the breaking, 'till our eyes can't shed a tear. There are days when love bestows us with its wonderment and light; with its beauty and its mystery, its power and its might. And there are days when life rewards us and seems to make amends by granting us a marvelous gift, the precious gift of Friends.

I FORGOT...AGAIN!! You have probably forgotten me by now. And in the meantime I continue waiting for you. I have not wanted to leave in order that someday if you were to want to come back you would find me here still. So I am still here in the same place as always, in the same city, and with the same people, so that on your return you would find nothing different and you would be like yesterday and we would never again part. Maybe I am asking too much. I was forgetting that we were finished, that you will never return, that you never loved me. I forgot again that only I loved you.

Alzheimer's!!!

Stuttering lost within clouds of mind he said. “I carry a stagnant love that has for years now been dead” Then when I asked what caused the end of this love he cannot forget. “My love was killed by scars we had before we even met”

YOU WALKED AWAY FROM ME AND NEVER LOOKED BACK NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN AND THAT WAS THAT WHEN DO I GET CLOSURE FROM THIS TRAGIC EVENT ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS THE WAY YOU WENT WHEN I LOOKED UPON YOUR EYES FOR THE VERY LAST TIME THEY REFLECTED OF HURT YOUR GLARE WAS BLIND YOU STOOD THERE SO STRONG WITH BLACK TEARS ON YOUR FACE THEN YOU WERE GONE A GHOSTS ELEGENT TRACE my soul fades away now my heart aches of pain my soul becomes my shadow my heart cant win this battle YOU USE TO TELL ME YOU WOULD NEVER GO AWAY YOU WOULD LOVE ME FOREVER WE WERE INSEPERABLE THAT WAY THE WORDS THAT YOU SAID TO ME REPEAT IN MY HEAD AS I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP IN WHAT USE TO BE OUR BED SO GOODBYE TO MY LOVE THAT LEFT ME THIS PAIN IN MY DEEPEST REGRET I'M THE ONLY ONE TO BLAME I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF FOR WHAT LED TO THIS I NOW LIVE WITHOUT YOUR BEAUTIFUL LOVE I WILL MISS my soul fades away now my heart aches of pain my soul becomes my shadow my heart cant win this battle I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER YOU HOLD HALF OF MY HEART SO NOW ONCE AGAIN I GO BACK TO THE START GOODBYE ONCE AGAIN TO THOSE LIPS I'LL NEVER KISS HOPE TO SEE YOU ONE DAY WHEN YOUR HAPPIER THEN THIS...