So is everyone else. It's planet-wide. No one is feeling like doing much of anything. Things which seems so exciting or promising a few weeks ago now hold little or no allure at all, and people are wondering if they'll ever feel GOOD again.
I've been having people come to me and tell me how 'depressed' they feel, or how 'unmotivated' or 'lost' or 'lazy', even people who are not my clients or students! Friends, family, everyone is feeling this one. I wrote out an explanation to a client this morning and then I was guided to expand upon it and share it on the list, here.
Something very BIG is happening. Sensitives KNOW the world is literally and dramatically about to CHANGE. The waves of it are everywhere, and people who aren't yet awake are letting this incite FEAR in them. And then of course, those of us who pick up what everyone else sends out are drowning in this fear, working triple-overtime to transmute it.
Birth isn't easy for anyone.
What is coming is the true BIRTH of Heaven on Earth. And what has been happening for the past year is that we have been clearing space for it. If you want to get all new furniture for your house, you don't just charge up the Visa and pack the new stuff in with all the old. First you have to make room for the new.
Clearing. Sorting. Facing dirt you didn't know was there. Moving things you didn't realize would be so heavy. Feeling very uncomfortable during the process and empty once the old stuff is moved out and you are waiting on delivery of the new.
That was 2007 for most of us. Those of us on a conscious spiritual path had it DAMNED HARD this year. And now we're in the lull, with an empty, lonely house and a truck full of Ethan Allen on its way here.
When is the truck due? Well, a few pieces will arrive on the 18th and 19th of this month (in a couple of days) and a few pieces again on the 27th and 28th, but the big truck won't get here until mid-late February.
I know, it's hard to wait. But there is GREAT STUFF on that truck. Stuff you don't even realize you picked out. Stuff YOU didn't pick out, actually. Your Higher Self did. It's just like Christmas and your birthday all rolled into one. All kinds of wonderful surprises are headed your way on this truck. You just have no idea.
But in the meantime, you gave away your kitchen table and sold your couch, and you're sleeping on sleeping bags on a cold floor. You can't work, you can't play, you can't get comfortable, and sometimes you just want to scream and cry and have all the old stuff brought back in. To HELL with the new stuff, you just want to sit down for God's sake!
Can't. That's not the way it works. It sucks, but it's the truth. And the more you try to go back to the old, the harder this time will be.
The key to dealing with the lull times is to accept them, rather than fight them. No one likes them, but if you try to be somewhere other than where you are, they feel even worse. If you can accept that you are in the lull, and just do the BARE MINIMUM to get by, trying to seek out anything that will put a little joy in your life, crying when you need to, cussing when you have to, smiling only when it's genuine, it WILL pass.
The lull is not a time to work on future plans and projects, or meet with people or even work at all if you can help it. After all, you have no furniture! Where are they gonna sit? Where are you gonna spread out your work? It is a time to indulge the inner child and be what the old world calls 'lazy' but what the new world calls 'peacefully effortless'. Have picnics on the floor and put your favorite music on and dance in all the space. Screw productivity. You can't have any anyway! And what you work SO HARD to produce is probably gonna be in the way when the truck full of surprises arrives! And God knows you're tired of hauling stuff away. Don't create more clutter, just WAIT and let the truck come to you.
Peace can feel like depression when you're not used to it, and when you think you have to WORK to get what you want. That's the old way. And detaching from it can arouse fear in the hard-working ego self.
Think of a beach right before a tsunami hits. All the water is sucked out to sea, baring sand that never sees the light of day. Then it comes CRASHING back, flooding way past the point where the tide usually reaches, throwing everything into chaos.
THAT is what we are in the midst of. We are in the LOW TIDE, with sand (wounds, darkness, hard truths) being bared that have not seen the light of day. The water is coming, though, to take us PAST where we've ever been, with a surge of energy unlike any we've ever known.
According to channels, the 18th is a portal for new beginnings, so we will see the arrival of one or two new things, such as a new partnership, new possessions, new work, show up. But only little things. And only those that will prepare us for the bigger things. It's a fabulous time to engage in work on your shadow self, your inner child, your still-unhealed wounds.
In other words, the things that arrive now will be to help you give that floor and those walls an extra polish before the truck gets here.
Another portal opens on the 27th, which should bring even more 'tidings' of what is to come. You will feel yourself shifting into an action phase once again, but this will not last, because Mercury goes into retrograde the day after that. Mercury retrograde slows everything back down, giving us the chance to really face and heal and DETACH from anything that's holding us DOWN. This is absolutely crucial, especially this time, and is a great gift that allows us one last chance to clear the decks. We do not want anything holding us down, anchoring us, when the wave hits because then instead of surfing we will drown.
In the last week of Mercury retrograde, mid-February, we will start to FEEL the rush of the new energy like the stinging, tingling mist that heralds a tidal wave. Then, once Mercury goes direct, we will experience a SURGE unlike any we've ever known. If we have done our work and are not anchored down by all our old baggage, we will SAIL forward, faster than EVER. We will begin to experience reality unlike any we've ever known. If not, it will feel like the utter chaos that is caused when a tsunami hits, washing away all that was, and clearing the sand for something different. Anything we were too stubborn to let go of will be wrenched away from us, ready or not, so we, too, can surf our way to better things.
So in a nutshell, yes, these next few weeks will be challenging. The key is to accept and USE them for what they're intended for. To face and heal and clear and detach from anything which is holding you back from alignment with your true self and life's purpose. Again, cry when you need to, cuss when you have to, smile when you can. Dig down in your soul and love anything you find back to wholeness. Try to play. Ask that inner child what would put a smile on his or her face. Do that. But don't freak out if it's not as much fun as you'd like. The energy's just not there right now.
Get help with this process if you need it. None of us makes it alone. We weren't meant to.
