LostSoul's blog: "New Beginings"

The Past Years How often I have tried to tell the ways the words always there yet never coming out we began as friends we grew to be best friends over time we became mates then we were married our daughter is a most beautiful angel our pets they depend upon us always having a home for our family one mind, one body, one soul, one heart!!! falters, sumbles, fails... happiness dims while sadness grows barriers put up where none should ever be distrust spreads like a cancer poluting our hearts and our minds spirits wavering on the verge of collapse falling into a bottomless dark abyss darkness surrounds you, smothers you suffocating you, cant breathe wanting, needing, pleading surrender to the sorrow let it embrace you like a blanket two minds, two bodies, two souls, two hearts! something important is missing searching for purpose, looking for meaning wanting peace of mind broken, battered, bleeding love is lost without you holding my heart rock bottom seems so far above me pain is the only feeling of release no one sees the hurt you feel all alone hiding behind a facade of false truths she welcomes a new nail to pierce my shell he hurts you more than I can three minds, three bodies, three souls, three hearts!!! a ray of hope shines brightly in the distance a written word to to control ones destiny routes to self enforced happiness and joy proff that I am in control friendships blossom and bloom smiles come easier to those in need laughter heals some wounds love heals those deeper scars a single entity to bear itself it is said that thoughts become things wishing her the best is so hard while wanting more than I have finally I have more than I ever wanted two minds, two bodies, two souls, two hearts!!!

New Beginnings Things I used to feel for one I feel for someone new. I know not exactly what these feelings are. I only know that I am full of positive emotions. Joy for the way she treats me. Happiness for the way she talks to me. Enlightenment about the way we are so similar. Passion in every little touch to the deepest kiss. Our children are great friends ever inseperable. People say that opposites attract, but they are just sayings. I have had a wonderful time since leaving. Yet the increase of joy doesn't seem to falter. Ever expanding and growing it is consuming me in a way that I cannot describe. The rage I used to have that consumed me to the core is no longer. I have not wanted or needed to injure myself. Regardless of the reasons it was all in vain. Only to leave me with the scars of a doomed relationship. How unusual it is to loose someone so important. Only to find out how much you can Live without them. Life is too short to live in the past with memories that will never come back. Live your life to the fullest every day, never forgetting that somewhere someone is wishing you the best. Do not let them down... Live it up, you never know this may be your second chance.