Tears swell up in my eyes
I close them tight and try not to cry
Anger is eating me alive…
It’s beating at my soul…
Ripping at my heart…
And lashing out at my happiness
I don’t want to be here
I want out of this hole
But I cannot see the summit
Of this endless tunnel
I hunt for an end…
And search for a shortcut…
But every branch I reach, snaps
And I’m sent back to the bottom
I’m once again forced to be alone
Because this place is truly unknown
I do not know myself anymore
I can’t say I’m the same person
Too many tricks have been played
For me to remain level
I’m too paranoid to notice the sinking
Until I’m so far under…
I can’t see the light anymore…
Only darkness and emptiness…
Life creeps away slowly
I beg it to come back
Why does it want to leave?
Am I really that horrible?
Once again I try not to cry
I can’t show pain…
They must not know…
I can’t be weak…
Not around them, not around anyone
I can’t be weak, I’m never weak
Never…
