So here i am , I am never one to rant or vent i am pretty good at keeping everything in because well i really have no one i can talk to or vent to. Going to the base tharipist doesn't help and i don't feel like getting lectured for my feelings.
I am tired and i am restless, i miss my family and i miss my friends, I am far away from what i know and all i can think about is a nice warm bed with my wife.
Tomorrow is my mother in laws birthday and i am going to miss it, Just like how i celibrated my birthday alone and away from those i care about so much.
Not that i complain about the army i mean its been my life. Ever since i was old enough to know how to strap my own boot laces i wanted to be a soldier and then Jrotc and Rotc and then Finally Reserves and everything made me pretty happy but then all this shit.
It feels like forever since i have been home and i miss all those i care about so badly. Even my brothers i miss , we've drifted away so much they have girlfriends and lives and even getting to talk to them doesn't really happen. My own 17 year old brother rather spend time with his gf then take a phone call from me.
Talking to my mother is a waste of time since all she does is tell me she aposses military service, My father tells me to tough it out. I am tired of having to "Tough it out" Even though i return back where i belong shortly it doesn't seem soon enough. The closer i get the longer the days seem to drag out and the harder it seems to deal with being far away.
Is what i feel wrong? Should i just suck it up like i am suppost to? or do i have a right in my feelings, Are they justified feelings? I don't know anymore i am about ready to just give up because lately it seems the only thing that makes sence anymore.
Dom
