I knew i was Kinda diffrent when i was young kickin a ball about in the street with my brothers and friends ..i mean i did all the usual run of the mill london boys stuff and that but somehow felt different i wanted to be a Girl ... i wanted to play football yes but i also wanted to be daddys little princess too !1 you see i was the youngest of 4 boys and mums favourite too cos i was the baby mum and dad always wanted a girl and used to say it and inside i was screaming I AM A GIRL !!
Anyway i got into my teenage years and had to get tough to survive especially whre i was from as it was very rough and poverty was rife in the east end of london .
I absolutely excelled at sport especially football [ soccer] and athletics which made me very popular with the kids at school and at home .. like i said i did all the boy things got into scraps , Dated loads of girls and went to see chelsea play all the time ..but Still felt i should be a girl ! i actually never cross dressed !! at 18 i was drinking heavily and smoking the ganja to hide from what i was feeling inside i hid behind a hard reputation that i had i was crackin up inside and so much wanted to be a girl like tula was as i read her story in the national press i was thinking hey thats me ..wow i wish i could that ..but i was too scared of what people would say, Do And think you Know ?
How could i do this ? i was a hero to my mum and dad coz i excelled at sport and school I was 18 and my girlfriend had just got Pregnant ..imagine what was going through my head ?
So what i did was get married i thought hey yeah this will sort me out ...and it did for a while too the baby was born in 88 and in the next 5 years i had another two kids a girl then my son in 93 and i was ok really i was ..or so i thought ..i was playing football 3 days a week and drinkin a bit on a sunday still djing on thurs. friday and saturday nights ..i channelled all my energy and thoughts into building my family i so loved my wife too ..i still do in fact !! as love don`t just go away
anyway in 2001 i got a bad injury and stopped playing football altogether and then all the feelings i had when i was younger came rushing back with a vengence and i was cracking up agonising over what to do .. i hadn`t had time to think about things for a long time what with being so busy and wrapped up in football and my dj ing and family !!
so i started to drink heavily again and in 2002 i told my wife about it all ..and she kicked me out !!!
then i went and lived with a friend i had confided in a year previously gail and i lived at her home with her husband for a couple of years i got all the appointments after seeing my gp at charing x and was doin ok granted my family completely disowned me at that time and my wife was being very difficult indeed .... in jan 2004 i had an orchi and started to really transition the effect was amazing things were going well till my wife had a couple of minor strokes and i had to go move back in and look after my kids so i missed a few appointments at charing x as my kids needed me and so did my wife much more so i weighed the balance and missed the appointments ..... after a few months my wife got better and i left again to persue my transition charing x just said id have to go through the process again so i told them where to go !! and sought private medical options ..in the meantime my mother died and i had reconcilled with her b4 that 3 months b4 that in fact i was devastated i can tell u no-one talked to me at her funeral except my brother al and dad i had talked to mum a week b4 she died and she said to me i got to do what makes me happy and that she loved me !!
So i did i had facial enhancement surgery and breast aug in april 2005 and then got srs done in oct 05 with dr thomas at the nuffield in the meantime i have sorted things out with my now ex- wife see my kids all the time and my eldest daughter had a child in october .. so i am happy
Was it w0rth it ?.............................. OH YES !!
im very content with who i am and how i look ..i can`t say i wish i had transitioned when i was younger as it would be wishing my kids away ... and id never do that they are my LIFE
Funny how things turn out isnt it ?
Im now doing well , got my own entertainment business have my own house and enjoy life to the maximum
