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I should be over this your name and what you did shouldn't bother me any more but it does and lower I sink back into myself analyzing and reliving everything over and over again
I should be past this sinking feeling that twist the knots in my stomach, It's not you any more that bring the tears its knowing all she wants is you and the fact she will never have that
Its not your fault you were to far gone to be saved when you went away, tattered memories pictures and newspaper clippings thats all thats left
All thats left of someone the world forgot and left to die alone these things can't be replaced, there will always be a hole in her where you should of been that no one will ever fill
Those stars in your eyes they shine like diamonds,
Mind the thieves along the way, the stealers of dreams along the way
Kind words only travel so far it seems, when the feeling behind them are fake and unclean
So mind you're eyes because they can deceive, and soon enough you'll be lying with thieves
the light and the dark where you began is where it starts a toss of the coin and your path is chose thing you become is what it remembered the most time slips by and memories fade and the path you choose is what you became a flip of the coin and a cross of your fingers you can change who you are but the past foever lingers
I ripped myself apart again, tore it down to try and build it back up. I never quite get that far. Tie it up in a tourniquette but keep it broken so it stays numb. I never thought it would take this much work to forget what already forgot you. To fix the mess that got left behind. Constant questions from a little mind that doesn't understand the reasoning just the outcome of what you created. You can't hate whats already dead.
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(repost of <a href="/bulletins.php?b=3767605498">original</a> by '<a href="http://fubar.com/user/1223491">☠ Đaddy Tribs ☠ Owner of Den of Sin ~Owned By Oddlilgirlygirl~</a>' on '2009-08-24 14:24:29')
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I hate remembering... bringing up the past and what went wrong. I tried to fix it the best I could but is wasn't good enough to patch the wreck we made out of us. It came flooding back today, you want it to work but it never will.
Better in time thats what everyone says, how do you get better when you can't forget what brought you down so low you broke. Breakdowns seem so trivial till it happens to you. No one understands the way you feel when all you want to do is disappear and forget yourself sometimes. Call it emo or whatever its my outlet so I can make sure I still feel. Sometimes I wonder why things have to be the way they are and the things you said flood back to my mind and twist me back up so I'm complicated once again. You made it clear I'm not good enough for you yet slowly you creep back in and this viscious cycle return once again.
Perhaps it shouldn't bother me but it does
Late Nights spent in idle chatter to dull the boredom in our minds
I wish I could take back caring about you
I wish I never had
