female trucker's blog: "My world"

After long consideration and many talks with my kids and family I have made the choice to go for it and get my CDL. My kids understand why and have decided it sounds cool getting post cards and gifts from all the places I will go. They said they will be excited to show thier friends all the stuff they will get and tell them of all the places I will be going. I explained to them many times it means I will be gone a lot and they said that was ok we can talk on the phone every night before bed and get on web cam so we can see each other. Then they asked if on holidays they can ride with me so they can travel too *laughs* So now its time to start studying to get my permit. I know this is a chance to turn my life around and get ahead finally and support my family like I need to do. Cant depend on anyone but ME to make my life better and get back on track. Went through hard times and life went down hill so time to go back up the hill and make a life for my kids and myself. Thanks to all those who gave me positive thoughts and advice :) it was appreciated.

You know i can take it when someone decides they need to rate my stuff lower then a 10. Im a big girl and can handle it. But if ya gonna rate me low then have the BALLS to atleast say who you are... geeesh

Submissive (sub) A person who surrenders control of herself to her Dominant. The submissive, while putty in the hands of a Dominant whom she trusts and respects, is likely to be independent and assertive in any other arena. Submissive's are NOT submissive to all. We are only submissive to who we choose to be submissive to. Submission is not a sign of weakness or inferiority. Submission is not the same as passivity. Submission is not slavery Submission is not something that can be demanded or forced.

Being a Dominant requires you to be in control of yourself before you can ever hope to safely and successfully be in control of another. It is where you have control over a consenting submissive and having the power to control only what the submissive has given you the right to control. Power can not be taking it must be given freely from a submissive. Domination must come from the heart. If you want a fast easy way to be "boss" of your household this isnt the way to do it. Domination is not something you "try" its just who you are. Respect from a submissive is also EARNED not demanded.

You looked into my soul and captured me you got into my mind and controlled me you took a hold of my heart and loved me you took my body and pleasured me You will always be a part of me Your love and guidence has set me free. For a year i wished, even for one night, I could lay in your arms and you hold me tight. that dream came true, and the night became real and i will always cherish the way you make me feel. When you put me in that state of mind where I am no longer myself but belong totally to you makes my being secure This poem i found back when i first got into the BDSM Lifestyle in Feb of last year My heart mind body and soul belong to him. To do with what he wishes. I know he will never hurt me and only has my best interest. For he is my lover, friend, protector and most of all my Master. My heart he holds and gives me the love i need to feel complete in life. My mind is his to fill with what he wishes and what he feels i need to know. My body is his to do with as he pleases. Be it punishment with a firm smack on my ass or to use for his sexual pleasure and desires. My soul is his to keep forever. For he is the only one who can enter my soul and make me his. He is embedded in my soul so deep that no matter where he is I feel his pressence. This one i wrote a few months ago He is what it takes to complete me. Without Him I am lost. With Him I have direction in my life. My heart is His, to cherish and treasure. To know the pure true love that only He can bring out in me. My mind is His, to think only about Him and how to make and keep Him happy. All my thoughts are of Him first. My body is His. To serve Him well. To take care of Him in every way that is required of me. All my passions and desires are put into everything that is asked of me. So I may do more then please Him. But to make Him proud of me in all things.

Ever met someone in your life who touches your life in a way no one ever has? One who will always be in your thoughts and heart no matter where life takes you? One who you love but know will always be a friend and nothing more but thats ok cause they have touched you in a way that has changed your life forever? I have been lucky enough to say YES! to all that. After a year of waiting to meet this someone I finally did. This person has changed me forever. He has made me see who and what I am and what I want in life. He has opened my eyes to so many things in my life. He has made me see I am truly a beautiful and wonderful human. That I have so much to offer in life and that I can do anything I want in life if I just go out and do it and I can have anything I want if I have faith in myself and believe in myself. I hope everyone in life has or will encounter someone like this in their life's journey. And to that special person I am talking about I just want to say THANK YOU with all my heart and soul. You will always have a friend in me no matter what =)

My mind was spinning with the chats i had read Of all the things that he had said All i could think of was he is finally here The One who i held in my heart so dear Three deep breaths and i got out of the car I couldn't turn back now, i had come this far I opened the door to the hotel room And i knew i would be his very soon Once inside i closed the door And i knew in my heart this is what i longed for The lights were on but very dim And I wanted nothing more than to please Him, There he was laying on the bed So many thoughts were going through my head Looking at him made me feel nervous and scared But i knew in my heart he truly cared It felt so right to submit to his will Feelings of true submission that had never been fulfilled He opened my eyes to a world so new Taught me my submission was honest and true He made me see this was a life for me That true submission will set me free He showed me submission in a whole new way And I will forever remember this day