Carmel's blog: "My world!"

I met this guy a while back and thought he was SO cute. I never thought much of him, because he didn't "look" like my type...but there was something about him. I couldn't bring myself to go talk to him. He is really good friends with one of my best friends. I just spent the better part of a week hanging out with the guy. He is awesome! Sweet,funny, cute, and we have a lot of similar interests. He is VERY interesting. Very different from most of the guys I know. He isn't ashamed of who he is. Lots of fun. At first, I wanted to get in his pants...LOL! But the more I talked to him, the more I actually liked him. I love talking to him. But there is a catch...I recently met a few more of their friends, one of which is infatuated with him. She is an awesome person, but he and I talked about her and he doesn't like her in that way. He only wants to be her friend. She and I became pretty good friends, but I think it may be due to the fact that she didn't like how much he and I talked and stuff. I am exspecially happy about the fact that he is 5 months older than me. I truely think that I could really like him. BUT....the next issue is that he lives where I just moved from...

I just found out that I am probably going to be flying to Atlantic City, New Jersey at the end of March! I can't wait. Things are going to be soo crazy before then, but I think I am going to LOVE IT! I have never flown and never been to that part of the US. I can't wait! I am sooo excited!

OMG...so to those of you who knew I was in the process of moving, looks like I am not just yet. First reason being that I still have a job in Oklahoma, they haven't hired anyone yet. Second being that I have a job offer in Texarkana, TX. Third being that I can't handle being around the guy that is going to be my roommate, cause he acts a little too jealous of the guys I talk to and he scares them off. I just don't see how people, male and female alike, can tell someone that would do anything to be with them that they only want to be friends, then when that person decides..."hey, friends is better than nothing at all."...and they get over the urge to be with them, they decide they want me. I am guilty of it, and I'm sure everyone else is as well. BUT...why make that persons love life a living hell? You lost your chance, so back off!

I figured out a pattern to my relationships! First the love me Then they turn to only lust finally they leave me After they leave me I lust EVERYTHING Then I love someone I think is great And it starts ALL OVER! So.... Love Lust Leave Leave Lust Love A great BIG ENDLESS CIRCLE OF PAIN!!! But I am great...at least I know what to look forward to! LOL!

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Okay, I was a little harsh to guys that last blog I put in, but just to make sure all of you understand... I have been through so much lately that I am somewhat hostile to guys. To all the guys, don't take it personally, unless you are any of my exes! LOL! Mainly my Ex-Husband! I feel somuch better now that I have vented and gotten out of town for the weekend. I have some really good friends to hang with that make me feel better: Randa, Missy, Heather, Kyle, Powder, Melissa, and most of the time Eric. Don't take anything I say about guys personal. Just being and angry bitter bitch. LOL! I am a female and our hormones are FUCKED up! Can you actually make those stop without becoming a guy?! I hope to meet lots of new people on here! I am always up for new things!

OK...I have decided that the SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP game is not for me for a while! I have been engaged 3 times! number one: He dumped me for my best friend, who dumped him for me! :P number two: Was shipped off to Iraq, then I met number three. Now number two denies our engagement, but is one of my best friends and is secretly madly in love with me, he just doesn't realize it! number three: OHHHH number three is a doozy!! We actually made it to the alter...HOWEVER...1 week shy of 7 months into our marriage, he left me because he felt he was too young to be married. Well, guess what...3 weeks later hooks up with the girl he moved in with that he supposedly had NO feelings for. Now she is pregnant. And I am left with a COLD broken heart! YEAH for me! And his mother is tickled pink about that one! Congrats to the whole bunch! Good luck I hope you ROTT IN HELL!!! I know very dramatic! I really wasn't about drama till I met number one! And then that was only after he dumped me! What is so bad about me! I don't get it! Girls hate me cause guys like me. I don't know why guys like me...I am not that great! But they do like me, so why the FUCK do they keep breaking my heart!!!! Damn all guys to HELL!!!! I am only venting. I am really not like this to guys...but right now, I hate you all!!! Unless you can prove yourselves worthy...FUCK OFF for 4 days! I can list a few guys that can safely talk to me: Eric G...if you are on your best behavior! Nate B...cause he doesn't talk to me Kyle O...cause he is such a cutie Powder...cause your gay :P