The One's blog: "My Whiskey Lullaby"

I am tired everyday of seeing my children torn apart
when I drop my daughter off at daycare my youngest is begging me to take him away,

I am tired everyday to see all of my children begging to stay with me,
but they must go with their mother

I am tired everyday of losing more and more of what I am,
and becoming more and more of what I left behind so many years ago.

I am tired of losing everything, my family, my life, my belongings, my self.

I am tired of waking up every day knowing what the day brings, shame, sorrow, and pain - for things I have lost, the things I have done, and the things I should have done.

The whiskey barely works anymore, so I drink more and more.

The more I drink, the better it gets, and the less I remember.

Every night, the whiskey gets lighter, so I drink more and more, waiting for the day that never comes, the eternal slumber, the final drink.

This is my Whiskey Lullaby...goodnight.