Last night I had like a flash back of an incident in my past. You would think serving in Iraq, doing over 125 convoy operations, 52 raids, 14 air insertions, 7 IED attacks, 5 Firefights and countless Rocket and mortar attacks, it would be something in that vein . Nope, it was my mediation session between the dragon and me, in order to settle the divorce before we went to court and give even more money to the lawyers. It was not that bad, I had the knowledge of some things that came to light months after the divorce and I was being my loveable defiant smart ass self with pointed comments toward the dragon and her supporters. Still, it was kind of weird but looking back at the Night at the gym and catching a short segment of Glen Beck on CNN it kind of explains the triggers that caused the flash back.
The Triggers:
It was Wednesday, Triceps and bicep work out, but as usually a short run to get the heart going before the abdominal workout then the weight training and the long cardio work out. Well the back row of the treadmills were full with about 85 percent babes, as usual I became a ghost in their eyes. Well, I go to the last treadmill on the first row, then steps this extremely hot woman who gets on the stair stepper who was wearing some type of lavender lotion or perfume, yes it did smell very good. Finish the run and start on the abs, two more attractive women with no wedding rings get on the cardio machines, WTF, more things you will never have oh well, let’s finish the abs work out. On to the triceps part of the work out. As usually, two females are doing their workout trying to get in shape for a fitness show for next year, I laughed to myself. They were just cackling about what all they had to do and get sponsors and so, I was thinking they just going on about what they had to do for this show and I am training to get ready for War. A little later one of the woman’s husband work out partner who is a tanker with the Oxford Unit was there. She made the comment to him, hey why do you start training with us so you can go in the show to…oh I forgot you will not be here. Her training partner said where is he going? Iraq, the Guy said to them and pointed to me, Yeah he is going too. With a nod I said yep. The super fit one, made the comment be Glad you are not married to me, because you would not going. He would be going to Canada; my comment was Canada would be sending him back. She said you do not understand he would be going somewhere. Okay, Drop it, no more comments from me, let’s finish the triceps workout. However I got angrier each moment I started to think about. Who is this Narcissistic bitch who thinks her vag is so damn golden that you want a man to soil his honor and word. Even more, if she knew the guy was in the service and then wanting to change just for her instead accepting him for what he was, God she reminded me so much of the dragon. So damn Self center. Well finally get done, biceps work out, Attractive petite brunette gets on the leg press, I thought that she was too young and I am soooo going to jail. As I finished my work out, She looked legal as we passed then again, nothing from her, Nothing worse than feeling that you don’t have game because you are not even allowed to play. Oh well, I have other things to take care off. Finished Cardio and headed home.
I got home and was scanning the basic Cable that I have, I caught a commentary by Glen Beck concerning the economic situation in this country. He stated that the majority of problem was the Ponzi scheme that people were using to get things and living out of their means. Like opening a credit card with no means to pay for it and then using another credit card to transfer the balance then trying to borrow the money from a relative then end up robbing a bank to pay the relative. Damn, that is perfect description of the financial part of my marriage. Yes, I was willing partner in that situation, because I knew better, I am more to blame. Yes, I knew how Adam felt when Eve offered him the apple. Looking back on that, I should have been stronger but love does blind an individual, it is a mistake that I learned very much from the burn. Time for bed, some time the flash back came and I woke up around 3:00 am, thinking this is so f ed up. I went to back to bed and end up being about 10 minutes late to work. Oh well.
