eCo's blog: "my unsound mind"

Again this lonelyness fills me with this emptyness drains my heart of tenderness and fills me with this sorrowness a bleeding heart thoughts torn apart theres emptyness in this nothingness thoughtless ness in a mindless rest of broken thought.

as i stood alon in that doorway fearful of things to come afraid of what been hidden will come alive. im frightened i'll stand alone, and the ground i've stood afraid of whats to come of what i've put so far behind me i never knew i lived in fear i live by tears as something grows inside me now, in this time of need this time of recolection its time to free which binds me and free this inner tension free me from what i've done now none of you forgive me free me from my hopes and dreams now none of you are with me in solitude, i have no rejoice no forgiveness, without a choice without a thought, without a voice without myself, without.........you.

together we stood now forever we fall apart we sink in deeper each feeling such aversion have we forgotten our cause? do we really feel such apathy for each other? no, we've just forgotten our cause decieving, yet indulging who we were is fading vindictiveness settles in jealousy we've forgotten our morality and our cause. our cause was to discover each other, to know what no one but that person knew, and feel something together that they neither have nor will ever feel again with anyone else. its love, happyness, and truth.... ...truth? untruth, falsify, misleading unsound mind quit thinking a victim of my own mind hereafter please pardon me i solicit but dreams were made to be broken so much malice you want for my feelings you poison my mind when you're here you carry it with you wont someone forgive you? you cant consider these feelings are real the cause... ...forever and always... ...misled, untruth, falsified... ...me, and the love i had to offer. you, you're feeble i'll eradicate you. unfelt are these feelings......unsound......

The pieces still lying on the floor i'll pick them up before you reach the door Don't leave me now i've just discovered myself the feeling's are so deep you make me hate myself pieces are all that is left now guilt is all i have to offer on another day, in all the other ways you'll see i was made to suffer i'll suffer for your love confide just to show you those pieces on the floor is my heart shattered for you dont pick up the pieces they're no longer yours i told you i will suffer now i'll suffer even more