HUI's blog: "Simple Moments"

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posted on 03/12/2010&nbs-08:00;@&nbs-08:00;04:03&nbs-08:00;am

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Simple Moments...

I am a woman, who in the past, has always wondered how my future was going to turn out. I just wanted people to see that I had worth, I wanted to be loved, and respected. To be financially set, looking towards that future, and always wondering if I would ever reach those goals.
I began to realize that it isn't the future I need to worry about, it is the moments, and when it comes to the moments in my life, I have been truly blessed. I have had my really good ones, the really bad ones and the in between ones, and it makes me realize that there would be no future without these moments. The moments that makes me smile and laugh, the moments with good friends, who love me and only want the best for me. The bad moments, where lessons had to be learned, even if it hurt and wounded, it was a lesson that needed to be taught. The in between moments where I am never quite sure what is going to happen, and those are the times of self doubt, and wonder.
Moments of anxiety, panic and depression, moments of rage and hurt, moments that may seem to some people, awful moments, but to me they are mine, and as bad it may get I honestly must say they are my moments. Moments that God deemed necessary for me to have to learn, and the most blessed thing about it is, God never stopped holding my hand or let me go through them alone, He was always there. Through the sadness, the hurt, the pain, yes and even the hell God was there. And God bless these moments for they were apart of shaping me and making me the person I am today.
God has truly blessed me because He has sent me angels past and present. They will always be apart of me and my life, and even though we may not talk everyday, I know they are only a phone call away. I have a friend who told me he does not believe in best friends, and at first I thought, what a silly comment, surely there are best friends, and then I got his meaning, every one who comes into my life is there for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. And that these people should be honored all the same, and not taken for granted, or slighted for the reason they are there. They all are the best at one time or another.
And then there are the moments of love, moments with family, and friends. The moments where I have been lucky enough to have people touch my heart, my soul, and moments where I am truly loved.
Moments with Family, where I was taught right from wrong and was allowed to still be that rebellious little girl who was going to do it her way, and still does it her way. Moments with the friends I have had and will have, the trouble we loved to get into just because we could, and now wonder, what we were thinking, but still have no regrets. The tears that we cried, the time of hugs and understanding, and of honesty because we are friends and we know we don't have to fear the honesty. That the friendship will survive anything, if it was meant to be.
The best moment for me is, touch the cheek, look in the eyes, and I love You moment, it is an awesome feeling. And even if it was just a moment, it is a moment I would never regret, It is the moment that you know God truly blessed you. You can get it from your child, your grandchild, your friends, family, or if you are really lucky from the friend that became more to you. It may be a moment that was there for a minute and then gone but it is a moment you never forget. It is a moment when time actually will stand still, for that one moment, and you know God is smiling on you.
So I don't look toward the future anymore, I live for the moments. Thank you God for all the moments. Good ones, bad ones, and even the in between ones, because they are what makes me who I am, God bless those precious moments!!!