I get blown away every day by what I'm learning about myself. I know I'm not perfect, and I fall into the same traps of bad thinking processes, but try to quickly fix those bumps and get on the right track again. Another weekend spent on my growth, and finding ways to take another step towards being the best me I can. Someone replied to one of my blogs saying I sounded lonely. In a way I do get that way, but mostly I'm grateful that I have this time to find out what I need exactly for me. No relationship to fog up my thinking. No one to please or displease but me. Another told me that men are men and that I shouldn't expect more than a sexual come-on from them. That I should appreciate the compliments for what they are... Well, some may be compliments, and don't get me wrong, if they were I'm more than happy to accept them. But I see them for what they are after about five minutes talking to them. If they were giving me a genuine compliment, I'd be flattered that someone wanted to get to know me for who I am and telling me I was beautiful and had a great personality. But it's all about the tits, ass and pussy. Do I have a cam?? No...? Well then you should get one , NOW!! Why?? So I can see you....You can't see my pic in the IM box? All broken down to...( I wanna see you on cam....I've got my cock out..... wanna see it?? Now I'm gonna show you how I play with it.... ooo weee you're hot! Watch me cum..... Are you cumming too??uuuuuhhhhh felt sooo good!! Well baby, I gotta get back to work, (bed or whatever) Don't mean a damn thing to me.......
Now what I'd love to see is .....Hi how are you....? I read your profile and see you're a very interesting woman..... I like.....(naming a few of my interests) and then we talk about them. I think you're very attractive,(and of course you've shown me a pic of you) I would love to meet you and take you out for dinner so we can get to know each other better.....Of course this conversation would be flowing like a river..... no bumps or long pauses. And I would be getting respect for holding back and not giving up my sexy self. Until we are both comfortable....
......So is that a fantasy or wishful thinking??? I believe it can happen, whether it happens online or not. Bumping into someone could work too....... When it happens.... I'm not in a hurry and not desperately seeking it out. "You gotta learn to fall, before you learn to fly"
