i have never relly read anyones blogs on here but ive been avoiding something. i know i was suppossed to go home for thanksgiving tonight but put it off. i have lost two family members in my life and never once did i have time to think about it. i lost two uncles. i had literally five minutes notification between his heart attack and detah and not too much time to think about it. my second uncle i had justy recieved a call and didnt attend his funeral because i was too scared to get on a plane and still regret it. it's not really them im concerned about though. they have to be in a better place but,my grandma has been slipping away day by day and minute by minute for months now and i dont know how to deal with it except tipping back my bottle of vodka which is why there are probably a lot of typos and this is confusing. my bad but here's to you grandma, i pray for you to enjoy the rest of what you have left which i know isnt much because i can see the pain in your eyes whether or not you admit it. i love you. . .
