1:31pm
Not that any of my posts aren't normally real, I just decided I'd take some time to type it all out.
I've had a pretty ok year. It was a bit better than others, but the difference is I'm single. Oh, and another thing, I have a crush on one of my friends, but he lives super far away. I've been talking to him for over a year now. Or maybe it's barely been a year? I'm not too sure. It's been a long time, that's for sure. Anywho, I truly have a crush on him. He knows it too. It's a mutual feeling.
Anyway, I've been at my job with a law firm for about 5 months now. Time surely flew by. Oh well... I still feel out of place at the job, but hey I'm thankful to have one even with the drained economy.
I've had a lot of time to think, and I spent some time trying to re-evaluate my thoughts and my feelings about things in my life. I decided that I was going to change many things, which I have changed. Little by little, everyone will. Everyone meaning all the good people in my life.
On another note, my bday pretty much sucked this year, as it has on other occasions. This year was different though. I thought my friends would come through and at least take me out or something. We usually know a week or two ahead of time before anyone's b-day what we'd all do. No one called or text at all. Oh well. It's life. My bday is just another day, like I've been saying every year for the past 10 yrs. Yup it's been 10 yrs since I've personally wanted to celebrate my bday.
My baby brother and I went bowling last night and it was great b/c we rarely get to spend time. We have conflicting schedules. Tis life. C'est la vie. Ooh and we went to the movies and saw Lakeview Terrace. I wanted to laugh at this one part in the movie. There was a scene shot at a bar, well turns out I've been there before. I was there with my ex, and even though we'd been there at night time, I still recognized it. *memories* Dude, it was Footsies.
I've noticed I haven't given myself time to rant and rave about things around me.
I started being more productive with school and in my room. I already organized a few bags of clothes I no longer wear and am giving away a lot of my stuffed animals. I'm just going through this so I won't have to sit around at home and bum around and fall deep into a depression. Trust me, when I cry, no one knows what to do, and instead of 'comforting' me, they just leave me alone.
We'll see how the rest of my day turns out. I'm supposed to hook up with a guy friend. I think I'm going to go out there just to see what's up. I hope it's worth my while! hahahahaha
Ok, well I know there's more I'd like to write about but I won't b/c I sort of don't want to go into details. until next time.... 1:40PM
